Today was scary

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What I really need right now is
1) someone to identify with this, make me feel less weird about it
2) comfort and hope that things will get better instead of worse

My anxiety levels have made a bit of a sneak comeback lately, I usually first notice horrible tension and discomfort in my body in lots of strange ways. When I'm tired, I freak out so easily, but sort of collapse in on my self and try to get some sleep, as I don't have the energy to cry it out.
This is kind of familiar, though troubling.

Then today my out of house coping skills took an extremely disturbing nosedive. I went to a shop to find a journal and the staff looked at me haughtily and I suddenly felt like either collapsing in tears or attacking someone. I managed to stifle my inner turmoil though. Then I had to go into a really large store to get some curtain stuff etc for my new house. Everyone in there seemed to look really weird and frightening to me, and one person seemed to be following me around. I got acute chest pains at this point. It was so noisy, or it seemed so noisy, I wanted to explode. I suddenly was really disturbed by the variance in people's faces and dress sense.

Reluctantly I agreed to go into a third shop (homewares stuff) with my parents because they needed a rice cooker. I was completely overwhelmed by how different everyone looked, all the little differences and characteristics, from expression to body shape and size, it all totally stressed me out and overwhelmed me, on the way home in the car I just sobbed out of confusion and fear that I'm losing my mind or something, I've had trouble in stressful public situations before, but these specific things are totally new to me and making me feel like I can't face this life!

I need comfort, I'm so afraid and disturbed, I seem to be getting worse and new problems all the time, and noone is helping me...

*waves hands* First of all, calm down. Don't do anything drastic.

Let's break this down.

I think your anxiety and anti-therapeutic techniques are getting the best of you. Just sit in a nice corner, and do something positive, nourishing, and fun for 1-2 hours, more if you have the time/if it's equatable towards your lifestyle.

If you seriously think people are stalking/following you, you presumably have paranoia and/or G.A.D. (generalized anxiety disorder). It is absolutely commonplace for Aspies like you and me to have these characteristics. I have it, you have it, and many famous celebrities who either apparently have Asperger's (Adam Levine has A.D.D.) either have it or work on it.

Also, if people look at you funny, either laugh or tell them to stop/it's bugging you/tell them to just ignore you and you can enjoy yourself on your own merits. You don't deserve that kind of treatment.

Try not to delve into insanity. It's better for you and me.

I hope this helps! =D

I'm sorry you did not have a good day, well you said you wanted to feel less weird, today was similar for me. There will be good days and days you struggle with, and thats ok. Its just about keeping on going.

Sorry to hear about your negative experience. It seems like you are having problems with anxiety and just generally feeling overwhelmed (sensory issues?). I don't have any specific advice. I know I have trouble with anxiety (have been diagnosed with GAD). Medicine and mindfulness meditation help me. I don't know what will work for you. Just know you are not alone.

Sometimes LOL, I wish I could declare a moratorium on feelnig Aspie for at least one day

I need these too!

Swashy, Just one of those days. You just bought a new house?

I've been having massive anxiety attacks lately and I'm being forced to see my psychiatrist, whom I despise.