Missing my grandparents
I was at the ranch getting the rest of my stuff with my parents and my brother and the place looked very good. It had not looked that good since my childhood. Then when my grandfather got weaker due to age, the place didn't look as good and my uncle could do so much so he did his best taking care of the farm. Now the renter who lives in my grandparents home takes good care of it and she seems OCD about it because she was mowing parts of the lawn that didn't even need it. Even the inside of the home looked like a display in a magazine.
At our lake house, my uncles played old home movies they took in 1992 when my cousin was there visiting for a month and they had just gotten a new camera so my uncle wanted to test it out. He took movies of the ranch and inside the home and my grandparents and I realized I missed them because I remembered the times when they could still do anything and then they started to go downhill. My grandmother came first so my grandfather was taking care of her and then he got too old and then he needed help around the farm and then with the house and with meals and then himself and then it got too unsafe for him to drive so my parents and uncle didn't let him drive anymore. So when they both passed away I didn't really care because they were both gone already. I just missed the people they used to be before they started going downhill after seeing the farm and the videos.
It takes me a while to start missing someone and for me it took for me to see the videos and the ranch and how good it looked in a long time.
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Son: Diagnosed w/anxiety and ADHD. Also academic delayed and ASD lv 1.
Daughter: NT, no diagnoses. Possibly OCD. Is very private about herself.
I miss all my older relations also,I wish I had listened to their stories more.I would love to sit down with them as an adult and hear what they have to say.
For years my great-grandfathers home place sat empty and overgrown,now someone has bought it and fixed it up wonderfully,there was even a tree house.I am so happy some child will also love that place.I sure did,I wish our family had kept it,I never would have sold it.The best childhood memories ever.There were horses,giant hollyhocks,a lake near by,wild blackberries and everything a kid would want.And a small country diner with the best hotdogs,the owner would split them and fry them on the grill, and ice cream.
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I am the dust that dances in the light. - Rumi
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