Just a little rant...useless and fustrating existence....

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I'm so sick of waking up on Groundhog Day with nothing to do no outlets and listening to other people brag about they're amazing social lives or jobs..I don't mean to be bitter but screw them...it seems all those people live in perpetual sunshine where things just fall into their laps..also why is it the stupider you are the better your life is?!? I went to a main stream school and worked my ass off and yet the people who didn't bother seem so friggin happy it makes me sick....it's funny how technically I'm a supposed genius but have nothing to show for it an am good at nothing and yet the general Jeremy Kyle watching scum around here who's goal in life is to pump out babies for a bigger council house get praise and glory for ridiculous things....what am I missing? Do I need to dumb myself down and intergrate myself into chav culture? Do I need to pretend smile nod and agree with my so called peers again?? I've tried that and been miserable but is this worse I just don't know anymore.

Rant over

There's happiness out of ignorance, and those people will get hit hard later, midlife crisis and such...

There's also happiness out of enlightement. It's when you get too smart for your own good, become depressed for a while, and start seeking out spiritual guidance and other answers to the nature of existence.

Then you stumble onto the likes of Eckhart Tolle and Abraham-Hicks and start to wake up.

Oh yeah and there's also happiness from creation of things. You have a mind. Use it to create something you like.

fabien,
hope dont mind em answering but woud like to say please dont ever think are useless,in a decade of living in institutional and residential care are one of the best support staff have ever had so are definitely doing something right.
are a very understanding person who listens and doesnt rush us residents to get answers like many people do,are not judgemental,and are not easily spooked by challenging behavior,are also mega awesome at putting things into words so have got a good gift with english.

are a great singer-shoud look into getting a profesional song made,are a great artist and gamer,plus no one else knows anime as much plus are also a superb dinosaur expert.
are the most cleverest person have ever known besides sister! she is an aspie as well but she isnt diagnosed,she shoud have gotten the diagnosis back in her late teens but she got diagnosed with social anxiety disorder and handed propanalol instead [gather are more than familiar with this story lol,typical female aspie discrimination BS]. she was bullied for being gifted at school and some family of ours disowned her because they took her inteligence to mean being a posh snob, people who are gifted are hated on because much of the human race cant feel good for other peoples talents they can only ever feel jealousy and resentment.

“Life is trouble. Only death is not. To be alive is to undo your belt and *look* for trouble.”
― Nikos Kazantzakis, Zorba the Greek

I understand your sentiments fully. I often feel the same way, but I agree with Monsterland, in that one can reach a point where one tries to understand the nature of the world and the people around us. We do this by seeking out and investigating various spiritual paths. It doesn't always solve our problems, but it can help us to understand them better. In doing this, you should try to pay attention to your inner voice and especially look for those things that might be of interest to you. Often these are subtle things that you might normally ignore, or simply think of as being a waste of time, or perhaps of no value. Follow those paths, because they are our higher selves sending us helpful hints as it were. Do not allow other perple's opinions of these things keep you from pursuing some particular path. Use your own judgment. You might wander around a bit, but that's OK. You'll still be learning and growing.
Oh, and don't forget to be aware of those around you who might be useful sources of information, or mentors, or even teachers. There is an old saying: "When the student is ready, the teacher will appear." That teacher may be a person, book, movie, or perhaps an event that takes place. The teacher can be anything and will change over time as needed. The important thing is to form a clear intent and purpose in your mind and hold it there. Be aware of everything and everyone around you.
One interesting exercise is to carefully consider the events in your life and look for patterns that repeat themselves. Ask yourself what they all have in common and then ask why they are occurring. This is the hard part! It isn't enough to simply say that you have AS, for example. You have to ask why do YOU have AS and what purpose does it serve?
Anyway, as Zorba says, perhaps it's time to undo your belt!

MissFabien you are right. They're a buncha head bumped freeks on really good drugs. And they all suck!

Thank you for your reply's especially you EM!
Thank you also for understanding the frustration that comes out of everyday life....I do want to try and look at things differently I believe I'll be a happier person for it...but for now I'm in a rut and the sides are slippery....and in general people SUCK!! !! !!

hello fabien,
have the tablets started working yet? hope it stabilizes and are soon back at our place!
are missed by the chickens,theyre chirping out 'wheres auntie fab gone?'

its probably a good thing are not in right now though because chances are woud probably put working with the kids-TD is on one and taking our staff from us so we are housebound but the kids can go and do fun things like long day trips to some weird zoo up north,jesus when will that woman do her job properly and give a sht for both sides.