How to stop to expect from people?

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Hello, i'd like to know if there is any way in the world to make me stop expecting things from people i know, specially friends.
I've made 2 friends last year, we were 3 good friends until i start doing the worst thing to them, which is expecting them to do things to show their friendship to me and when those expectations didn't go according to reality, i would get mad at them to the point where i radically would act like i didn't care about them. In my head i kept thinking: "If they didn't do X then that must mean that they are not my friend because if i was on their position, i'm sure i wouldn't think twice about doing X", I'm now aware of how stupid it is to think like that but it would happen naturally in my head, i couldn't help it and i kind of get better at "not expecting that much" but the truth is that i still do expect a lot. Now those 2 friends of mine are still my friends but i can notice that they don't care about me much, they don't invite me to anything or even speak with me daily like they used to. Now i can see that they were better friends before and i regret so much for expecting so much of them. Oh and i always would speak my mind to them as i saw/see that with friends, i can speak my mind whenever i want because they should respect me and accept the way i am (I realise now that it's not a good idea to be so open to "just friends", i treated them like they were my lovers?). Every friend i do or something, i will just ruin it with expectations, it's like i want them to think the same way i do and that i'm right and they are wrong, wtf? since when i can even think that i'm right if i have no self-confidence or even self-esteem? Anyway the truth is that every friend i make i just ruin it! Everytime, it happened like 5 or 6 times already and i'm kind of getting tired of it, what am i doing wrong? I think it might be my sense of expecting from people which would be better if it would cease to exist but i'm not even aware of how to do it, it keeps happening in my head and sometimes i don't even notice it. What i think is: If i can't even get along with friends, how in the world i would be able to have a lover? It's like impossible, this expectation thing is like a desease.