Depressed

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I don't know how it happened but it crept up on me. I haven't told no one yet. I'm battling it every day. I feel stuck.
I'm alone. Nothing but family who fight and argue eachother. I'm just in the middle watching. Tried to meet a few new people including women. Did not go so well. Most probably think I am a lame. I'm approaching the end of my art degree. If I knew better I wouldn't have shoe that as a major. I somewhat feel like I wasted my time. I am a good person just trying to do the right things. While people who just don't give a damn and doing F'd up things are having a jolly old time. I'm getting put out my place. Every day is boring and uneventful. Only thing I do now is play video games and go to school. I don't work out like I used to. Except for playing basketball. I wonder if all ASD people start feeling this way at my age. My other ASD friends are older and they are not doing so good either.

I haven't heard from my friend in almost 2 months. He hasn't been on Facebook or called. Last time I heard he was getting help for his anxiety and depression. I feel fortunate for how and where I am but at the same time I don't. Sorry for my rant.

No need to apologize. I think a lot of us get down in the dumps every so often. At least it does to me anyway. It is good to know that these periods of depression are fleeting.

There are things you can do to help yourself.

- Start with taking a number of deep breaths when you are feeling low, and when you get up in the morning. That helps get more oxygen into your system.
- Then try to do some moderate exercise everyday, or at least every other day. That will generate mood boosting endorphins in your body.
- Read funny stories and watch funny programs. Humor also generates those endorphins.
- Try to eat healthier foods.
- Get more rest. Being tired adds to depressive feelings. Being better rested tends to make people feel better.
- Do some research on whatever problems you have--financial, school, etc., to help you figure out a way of dealing with them.

Don't beat yourself up over having taken art, and then finding out there aren't a lot of art jobs available. First, you must like art or you wouldn't have taken that as a major. Second, the schools are notorious for not giving students a clear idea of what sort of jobs companies are looking to fill. That way they can keep charging students for courses that won't help them in real world situations, but that often don't cost the schools much to provide. This makes money for the schools, but not for the students.

You may have to get creative to find a way to convert your degree into a money making job. In the mean time you will probably have to take a non art type of job to pay the bills. You should also look into taking courses at a vocational school, to get training for a real world type of job. There are all kinds of vocational courses out there. Some are office related, others are medical related, like nursing. Then there are computer courses, courses for fixing cars and trucks, learning how to be a plumber or electrician, etc. Do look into that, and good luck.

My feelings in this regard have been on the up and up since I got rid of my Facebook, sure, it's normal for most people to obsess over what all their friends are doing at any given time, but as for us I think that's an easy way to get ahead of ourselves. I've had my account deactivated for months at a time lately, and I derive enjoyment from keeping in contact with people on a day to day basis, as opposed to an up to the minute one. People can contact me on their terms when they find the time to read into my actions, and I can text or call them when I come up with something that strikes me as worth saying. Not that I've reconciled all my intentions with my social life just yet, but I can assure you I found a faster path to it.

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