I feel guilty quite often-usually for not managing "normal". I'm supposed to be taking it easy right now. I feel guilty having more spare time, and for not being "Miss Social on the Go". I have been told guilt is a damaging emotion, but I haven't figured out how to make myself a priority without guilt or fear of judgement/retribution. I always want the thrill of the challenge of throwing myself into chaotic situations, even though I know I can't manage it long term.
In a way, it's "all or nothing" black and white thinking. It could be denial, too. Any thoughts or wisdom on how to manage would be greatly appreciated.