lostonearth35 wrote:
After ranting like a severely paranoid lunatic (the Hunter's Moon was out that night, coincidence?) about the threat of nukes and radiation poisoning this Past Friday on WP, I still feel like a hopeless waste of human flesh. My mother and I normally go out for lunch once a week on Mondays, but I was too miserable and crying and so we got take-out instead, and I ate it alone back at my apartment. Doing so probably prevented me from having a meltdown in public, embarrassing my mother, humiliating myself, and freaking people out. Then I spent most of the afternoon napping even though I didn't get up until 11:30 this morning. It's like everything that I was looking forward to this month has been sucked out of my body. Friday I tried to stab or cut my wrist with scissors but was too chicken to make anything worse than a superficial scratch. I guess that's a "good" thing?
First of all, sorry to hear you're having such a rough time. It sounds to me like you may be severely depressed. Talking to someone in your life that you trust might help you. Professional help is another option, but If you're like me and find it hard to open up to strangers, that may not be an option. From experience though, I can say that bottling up emotions is not a good thing. Best wishes to you.
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Your Aspie score: 159 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 51 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
21 Oct 2013, 3:34 pm
