This would be the better forum to talk about this.
I've fallen into a rut system, where I wake up, go to work, come back, lounge, eat dinner and sleep. With my current job there are no real opportunities to socialize and truly make new friends because it relies on an old fashioned system where everyone must stay working in order to keep the store manager happy (I work at a thrift store accepting drive-thru donations).
I've got a whacked out swing shift schedule (working when the other person does not) with tuesday & thursday off, which leaves very rare opportunities for people to hang out with me (even back at my old college town where people still stay at because i have to work very early the following day when I have off).
Then there's the "single man blues," which isn't being helped much by this rut. Got out of a bad breakup with a woman who prioritized material objects to define a relationship and never considered us together. I keep wishing for something to change after college but it's the same old same old without any changes.
Most of the people that I used to speak with I don't anymore. I feel like i've put myself in isolation inadvertently and now i'm stuck.
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