I'm sad

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I'm sad. Please say something nice to me.

I've never made a thread like this before. I suppose it's pathetic. But I just feel lonely and very, very sad and I'm crying.

There, there. I'm really poor at consoling people. Right about now I'll give it a try, though.

Oh thank you, Redrobin. That cheered me up a tiny bit because it made me laugh when you said "there there."

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Awww, why are you sad? I always enjoy talking to you.
Hope you feel better!

I love the way you analyse things, and that makes you very cool.

Oh thank you. I feel awkward and horrified. I wasn't asking for compliments. It's not an ego thread. That's not what I meant by asking people to say "something nice." I should have been more specific. I guess I just wanted some kind words from fellow humans, along the lines of RedRobin's "there there."

I am now worried that people might think I was fishing for compliments. I wasn't. All I was hoping for was some virtual hugs or sympathy, I suppose. But I can't even get that basic request right. I always seem to make people misunderstand me.

Why do all my efforts at communication turn out wrong?

Anyway I expect I will get better soon. I normally do. There isn't any other option.

*virtual hug*

When you say that it sounds like you want to hear a compliment. Sorry that we can't read between the lines.



There, there. And here's a virtual hug, *hug*.

I am such a disaster. I am all right being all alone and talking to myself, because I understand myself. But when it comes to talking to other people, I always say the wrong things, and mess everything up. It's so awful. Why can't there be just one person who understands me?

I will just have to go back to being a hermit and not talking to anyone else. It's safer keeping my thoughts to myself, but it's more lonely. I just wish I had a friend to cuddle me. Or a nice mummy to come and take care of me. The worst part is, when I have meltdowns, nobody knows or cares. If I died in here in this house, nobody would even notice until my rotting corpse started to be smellable through my front door. I'm sure I'm not the only person on this forum who is in the same boat, and has no one to love them at all. So I'm not really pitying myself. I'm just sadly pondering facts. By saying "if I died in this house" I am not implying I am suicidal. It just makes me very sad to think that, if I were to die from natural causes, nobody would notice or care, that's all. It makes me sad that right now there is nobody I can phone to talk to. I don't have anyone. Only my dog. And when I try to make friends with people, they misunderstand me, and it all goes wrong.

cuddles for molly

xx

Ha, I was not saying that because I thought you were fishing for compliments. I just thought you sounded like you felt nobody wanted to be around you and I was saying that I like being around you. So stop picking on yourself, there's enough nuttys out there to do that for you!

Oh thank you Wozeree. I am sorry. I have said the wrong thing AGAIN.

I'm not picking on myself; just having a meltdown and lamenting my inability to communicate my intended meaning.

Thank you for saying you like to be around me. That's nice of you. I didn't know.

It's only recently I came across this expression and I like it:

"Tears are good - they wash the soul."

Edit: never mind. I suppose I took that remark too literally and risk getting into an argument on my own thread.

A hurting soul is slightly better than a soul that has given up all capability to feel emotion.

I've been listening to cathartic music most of the day - back on evanescence now...

@LogicalMolly - you're not alone in that dismal boat. I'm family-less and friendless. If I died now it'd be weeks before they discovered my corpse. I'm not a phone person and my AvPD really keeps any potential partner at bay.

Now that I'm on Medicaid, I've been thinking about seeing a therapist. Maybe they can help with my avoidance issues.