Since last week things have just started to slip down hill, gaining momentum until they are moving to fast for me to stop them. I have lost two friends because of how I act (KAF last week and then discovered another that hadn't been for at least four more weeks on top of that), I am loosing all of my special interests apart from a couple and am practically stimming every waking minute of the day. I have lost about 7 hours of sleep (I don't sleep much anyways and this is quite a large portion of what I normally sleep) and because of this can't hold back my creative mind. While my creative mind is great when it needs to be, it doesn't help at all when it keeps creating the "what if" scenarios in your head and makes you think about those every waking minute of the day.
It is nearing Christmas now and my support practically stops for the entirety of the holiday period (college is shut, SIG group finishes for Christmas and the people I speak to at church go and visit family) and I don't know if I will cope throughout the holidays. I never have coped well in the holidays (too much social interaction with annoying family members and no routine or structure) and this year I am scared that the events leading up to it so far are going to make the holiday unbearable.
If anyone has any ideas on how best I can cope with all that is running through my head at the minute please let me know.
Thanks for reading this as it is a bit of a long post
SRT
16 Dec 2013, 7:22 am
