Someone help cheer me up.

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Recently my life has been a nightmare. My mom recently stopped talking to her abusive ex. We got evicted from our apartment and are living in an unfinished basement. We are technically homeless.The guy we are staying with calls me and my sister lazy. I had to quit the job I was doing because I was miserable and having mood swings/ meltdowns. I have no insurance and have been struggling for years to figure out what is wrong with me. I think I'm an Aspie, but no doctor and even close people seem to take me seriously. I feel like a mutt just kicked around and not offered any sort of help. Lately I've just wished someone would shoot me.

Every time I get a job within a few months I have so much anxiety and am so miserable I shut down and have to quit. I tell people how I feel and I get blown off as lazy or lacking discipline. I really am a hard worker and like to be helpful, but no one see that. I was ok until I graduated high school then my life began spiralling down. I get denied help from the state because I'm an adult. My mom has been such a wreck and has never really helped me with anything. Not to say she doesn't care, life seems to overwhelm her too. I just can't seem to function as an adult.

I dropped out of college, I have no license, no money, no job, no insurance or help. I'm depressed and confused about what to do because I feel so lost.

I am not sure what the situations were at the jobs. But if you could figure out really specifically what it is that is giving you anxiety you may be able to read up on the problem online and devise ways to cope with it better.

Plus, are you sure you don't qualify for free or minimal cost health services? Try contacting your local social services (or equivalent) to find out if you qualify for any assistance programs.
It would be good if you could get evaluated for what conditions you might have (ie. anxiety).

Do you have any aspie support scene within reach of where you live? Or to write to?
Importantly to back up the facts about why you have struggled with employment?

You sound like me in some respects. I have such trouble with work keeping my stress levels down. I'm on SSI which is used to pay rent to a parent, but in some ways this makes it worse as people accuse me of gaming the system and feel like any gift from me is a worthless gesture and might as well be theirs anyway, and it doesn't help that this state has been the case for years. It's to the point where every little comfort for myself that I take feels like a crime.

When I've been at work, I'm a hard worker, and try to be helpful, but often behind my back people will talk down about me or spread garbage. This makes me less inclined to engage with coworkers socially which wasn't happening either way, but it doesn't make it better.

I'm sorry I have no advice to give about your problems, but felt the need to commiserate with someone I see as being somewhat like myself.

I hope you get the help you need, and your situation improves. Maybe reach out to a social worker or family center in your area to see about getting some supports set up for yourself. In the meantime hang in there.

Is there a GRASP chapter in the city where you live? The meetings can be very helpful.
www.grasp.org