jess162k7 wrote:
i keep having thoughts of dying an that i dont really want to do die, no one does
Well, if you really think about it, the idea of living forever doesn't seem that pleasant, either, especially since you can't stop the aging process.
The fear of dying is a built-in survival mechanism, it's hard-wired into the brain. However, it's an experience we all will go through eventually, ready or not.
Personally, I'm not a subscriber to any religious orthodoxy, but I am of the opinion that just as energy cannot be created or destroyed, that consciousness (not ego personality) is not a construct of the brain, but focuses through it like a lens and does not cease to exist after the expiration of it's physical vehicle. In fact, I'm not convinced that our waking brain-based personality is capable of fully accessing the whole of our consciousness.
Thousands of years of mystical tradition and the study of Near Death Experiences indicate that we are much more than the sum of the parts of which we are currently aware. If it's any consolation, most people who have survived the death experience report that it's not only not frightening or painful, but actually joyous and euphoric. Skeptics liked to claim that's the dying brain suffering lack of oxygen, but that oversimplification is insufficient to explain the case reports. In either case, it's not horrible.
I think many exciting discoveries about the nature of our universe and ourselves, including life and death and what exists beyond those experiences, await us in the study of Quantum, String Theory and Extradimensional Spacetime.
Humans are but preschoolers playing with Legos in the Multiverse. We have a lot to learn, so fear of what's to come is at best premature and probably completely unwarranted.