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I feel like somethings not right in my mind. I've been suicidally depressed before and it feels kind of like I am going that direction but not the same usually I have more racing thoughts and such...but past couple days its like I have all this brain fog and its hard to even know what I am thinking...for all I know there are racing thoughts but I just can't perceive them through the damn fog. Kinda wish I had a therapist appointment soon so I could tell them that....but yeah I might need some kind of treatment before my next therapy appointment perhaps something a bit more intensive.

Just trying to at least get to the hearing I have in 5 days concerning SSI before my mind totally goes to s***. But yes I've had varying mental issues for quite some time but it seems like something outside of what I am familiar with is going on doesn't feel like the anxiety, PTSD or depression symptoms I wonder if I have something else on my plate. Maybe I am just too stressed but all i really have going on is that SSI hearing and not much else...I suppose I am unhappy with my current living/financial situation as well.

I don't know if this even makes sense...point is I guess I am rather worried, and its very difficult to even describe my exact feeling.

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Sometimes that happens to me. I think of it as anxiety mixed with depression, when the stress is so much to deal with that it kind of kills all other feeling. That is always a scary time for me, which is why I sent you a virtual hug. Hang in there.

I've felt that way when really depressed.My mind felt thick and sluggish.If you are on antidepressants you may need to up the dose.I hope it goes well for you at your hearing and that you feel better.

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I hope your hearing goes well and you find some Peace, uurrgh, it can be so frustrating. Sometimes I struggle to think clearly and know that heavy mind fog too well. Hang in there.

I am prescribed anti-depressants, but haven't started taking them yet....So far every anti-depressant I have tried makes me more anxious, wellbutrin was probably the worst because it also had some pretty weird effects. So I am a bit afraid to try another one, but maybe I will.

I'm on Lexapro.They tried celexa first and it made me sleep all the time and when I woke up I felt angry.I take Ativan with the Lexapro so it's possible you may need a combo.
I had side effects with every mood stabilizer I tried,and the seroquel.Some were pretty bad.The few side effects I had with the Lexapro went away after awhile,sometimes it takes awhile for your body to adjust.

The psychiatrist wanted me to try celexa...and besides wellbutrin I've tried prozac, effexor and mirtazapine I was also perscribed zyprexa for depression and that just made me drowsy uninterested in everything. Seroquel is a terrible drug at least for me...they gave that to me in the psych ward for anxiety and all it does is make me anxious, irritable and drowsy all at the same time same with any anti-histamine.

I am taking valium for anxiety, though on some days I feel the 1 5mg a day might need to be increased to twice a day....and I take trazodone for when I can't sleep. So I guess I could see how that works with those, but there is a good chance it will just make me more anxious....thus I am anxious to try it but I might as well, if it doesn't work then my psychiatrist won't try any more SSRI's. I just know tomorrow when I ask my mom for a ride to the pharmacy(so I can pick that up as well as my trazodone refill(though maybe I will wait on that since I still have quite a bit of trazodone left) she's probably going to tell me how I should just try reading a book on positive thinking, or take some herbal supplement which aren't bad things but I need a little more help then that to feel better.

Sounds like it could be another symtom, or maybe a deepening phase, of depression. I have heard that one mentioned a few times before. Even in normal NT circumstances, a hearing with important consequences can bring on a lot of anxiety. So its likely you are experiencing quite a high level and with your conditions it is probably more severe. I would guess then to an extent what you are experiencing is a predictable difficult phase and it is not necessarily a sign of some new problem area.

It like a Halloween House of Horrors. Even a very steady person with strong nerves can get spooked momentarily or even a bit frightened. But a nervous wreck going in there can get shook all to pieces. It isn't a 'Call 911' thing. You just calm them down and sweep all their pieces together and help them out of the environment. I think of this because I use to help organize and run one for a few years. What fun! lol

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You have anxiety about a pending hearing in which you have to demonstrate to the authorities that you have mental problems that prevent you from working.

And you're afraid that your brain will shut down beforehand causing you to be too mentally incompetent to demonstrate to the authorities that you're...mentally incompetent!



Do I understand this correctly?

That actually kinda made me laugh....but yeah I guess that kind of is the gist of it.

Now that i got potentially bad news from the attorney...essentially medical records are kind of lacking the stress is even more overwhelming. Unfortunately stress isn't exactly an environment I can be helped out of, it would be very nice if that was the case.

There are a lot of situations that you can't get out of and just have to get thru. Humor won't get you out either, but it can make it a lot more bearable.

Somebody gave you Zyprexa for depression and Seroquel for anxiety? Those are both antipsychotics, I guess the Seroquel makes sense kind of if it was in a psych ward setting, but the Zyprexa script is jacked up.

Well they wanted to try the zyprexa because I have yet to find any success in a proper 'anti-depressant' and apparently while that med is an anti-psychotic it has some properties that can help depression and apparently has for some people. I wasn't sure seroquel was an anti-psychotic...but yeah I know its supposed to calm things down which is probably why they tried it for my anxiety.

That's true, and so that is what I am doing....just trying to keep my mind kind of occupied with non-stressful things and waiting things out. Yesterday I had a very lenghty panic/stress attack and was considering going to the ER to try and get checked into a psych ward because I was afraid I might cause myself harm...but was able to wait it out and now I am feeling a bit better today. But yeah I guess the important thing is to try and manage the stress and if it does escalate too much do what I need to stay safe.

Humor certainly does help, even if it doesn't end the situation.

If you don't mind me asking; what is brain fog?

Is it like when you feel stoned even when you're not?