Deep Depression

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My life has recently reached a new low. I've been so horribly depressed lately. It's so bad to the point that I feel nauseous all the time and I have almost 0 appetite. My Prozac isn't even helping much with it.
Three things are making being awake mental torture for me right now:

- I'm graduating in a few weeks, and I'm just so damn afraid of it. Even though I hate High School, I hate change even more. I'm afraid of the future, I'm afraid of everything changing, I'm afraid of becoming an adult....

- I want to attempt to make amends with my first ex who was also one of the best friends I've ever had. We haven't talked since early Sophomore year....but I feel so bad for what I did. I don't want to date her again, I just want to be really good friends with her like I was before. I doubt she'd want to be friends with me ever again though, and I'm afraid what she might say will make me feel worse than I feel right now.

- I'm so sick of my most recent ex. I want to stop talking to her, yet for some reason part of me doesn't. Maybe it's the whole change thing again? I really hate talking to her though, because it just makes me feel sad. I don't even think she really likes me as a friend anymore anyway. I think she just wants to talk to me because her life is "so sad" and I'm the only person she can think of to dump her problems on.

I don't know what to do...

I am currently at a new low myself.

Tim

I had the same reaction when I left university...terror. Tried to look for a job etc, but was just too depressed and unable to cope so i gave up pressuring myself in the end. I am sure I will come round when I am ready.

It is possible that for you things will look better once you are actually in the situation of having adult responsibilities...sometimes, the mountain can look impossibly high looking at it from the bottom. As to your first ex...either let it go altogether or stick yout foot in the water and give it a go... as being in limbo will just drive you insane.

I am feeling depressed right now. I just want to find something I enjoy.

I was very down today too

I don't exactly feel depressed, but I DO feel lonely right now.

There's nothing more stressful than uncertainty, that's true.

But be aware that depression has a clinical basis, and should be treated as such if it gets severe enough. Try Omega-3 capsules and St. John's Wort, and if it's severe enough or they don't work, consider seeing a doctor to get a prescription for antidepressants. Yes, they are frequently overprescribed and aren't a panacea, but they CAN spark a dramatic recovery. I'm speaking from experience, Prozac was literally like flipping a switch and suddenly the world didn't seem like such a dark place. That won't be everyone's experience, for sure, but at least in my case (I took Prozac for about 8 months) it helped a great deal.

I take effexor and feel normal emotions now.

Cyanide, get thee to a doctor and have yourself re-evaluated. The problem with antidepressants is they quit working after a while, and it may be time to change to a new one.

Sometimes an antidepressant can trigger a bipolar condition as well.

Only a psychiatrist, and hopefully it's one who's been seeing you, can determine whether you need a new antidepressant. Maybe he or she will prescribe something else, like therapy or exercise, but please go. It's not something that can be dealt with on a message board.

I have been on antidepressants for fifteen years, and I've had to change ever so often. It's kind of a bummer, because one will work for a while, and then when it quits, it's so discouraging. I usually can't go back to old antidepressants as they will never work again for me. But I've been lucky the last couple of years that I've been on meds that weren't hard to get off of and the new ones work pretty well.

Good luck and metta, Rjaye