Frustration
I'm in a bad place right now. My gf has been trying and trying to find a job. She's been on interviews but nothing ever comes of it. Nothing. The gf of a friend of mine went out job hunting last week, got an interview today, and walked out with a job. She's no more qualified than my gf is, yet she scores on her very first try. She's a nice girl and all that, and am glad she got a job, but it still makes me so angry that my gf can't get the same opportunity.
On top of that, my stress is just through the roof. I'm not happy in my life at all. I'm working all the time and yet still can't seem to save money to put in savings, and I'm scared to death every day something is going to happen. My diet has been derailed due to all of my stress eating. I'm not satisfied in my industry anymore--I feel like I'm in a dead end. I need to the motivation to explore another direction, and I just can't find it. I am totally lost.
I just turned 36 in life and I'm wondering if I'm ever going to find my calling in this world. I have different ideas on projects (writing, possibly developing a few apps), but I don't know where to start, and I've always been horrible at finishing projects.
I don't know how much longer I can do all this. I'm failing at life.
--Steve
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That sucks..that feeling of treading water and losing ground. You're probably not going to accomplish anything in panic mode unfortunately.
I don't know if this helps, but it's how I deal. Cut out any thoughts of the future at this moment and focus on this second. Roof over the head? check. Employed? check. Family good? check. Yes the future is looming uncertain ahead, but it doesn't pay to worry so much now about later--you end up incapacitated.
Good luck to you, and your gf.