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09 Apr 2014, 12:02 pm

I keep wondering why to live?

Today i was told that im not good at my work
For 3 years i worked in this NGO and now they say i m not good enough

I cant be a good mother no matter what i do isnt good enough

I am kind of estranged from my biological family
The place i live in is quite isolated there are no people around
I dont have anyone to communicate with

I dont have close companions
now no job means i will spiral into depression
already im diagnosed with bipolar 2 depression
and not on medications.

idle mind will kill me eventually


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09 Apr 2014, 12:16 pm

Sorry to hear about the loss of your job. Things will get better.



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09 Apr 2014, 12:26 pm

I'm sorry to hear you are in such a bad place. Maybe you can find some companionship on Wrong Planet to make you feel less alone. I hope things look up for you soon.



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09 Apr 2014, 12:47 pm

As person above said, you will always have people to communicate with here at WP!
I wish you all the best and to feel better and find a new job soon!



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09 Apr 2014, 2:09 pm

emtyeye wrote:
As person above said, you will always have people to communicate with here at WP!
I wish you all the best and to feel better and find a new job soon!

i dont want to take up a job jusst to keep myself busy
all this years i was doing that
i was busy at my workplace
but they noticed that i didnt fit in
i stood out like a sore thumb
and eventually they kept saying that students suffer due to my
poor skills
so all said and done i will not look for a job from onwards
if im not gud enough i dont want to sell myself in the market


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09 Apr 2014, 2:59 pm

Is there an area or skill you are actually good at where you can work, or maybe even volunteer? If you volunteer, you will feel more useful in the society; people love volunteers.

Also, if you are depressed, perhaps you can find some medication or even try using some therapy techniques on yourself, like cognitive restructuring? People generally don't like those who are unhappy/depressed and depression does make you feel less confident about your work, which may then lower the quality of your work.

If you don't fit in, that doesn't mean you can't do a good job or be useful anywhere. I'm sure you're still doing something right at work. Sometimes people say bad things but your results should speak for themselves.


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09 Apr 2014, 4:51 pm

Where do you currently live? I have a list of Suicide Hotlines that you can call (at least you won't have to be alone). Just click on the link corresponding to the place you currently stay. If you feel you are at a serious risk of harming yourself, you should call an ambulance or travel to the emergency room.

Just make sure that you are safe. Even if you can't physically be with people, try to call somebody at least. And take good care of yourself.

But y'know what? The economy is tanking. They prolly laid you off because they wanna save some money and not because you're a bad worker.



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09 Apr 2014, 9:43 pm

MathGirl wrote:
Is there an area or skill you are actually good at where you can work, or maybe even volunteer? If you volunteer, you will feel more useful in the society; people love volunteers.

Also, if you are depressed, perhaps you can find some medication or even try using some therapy techniques on yourself, like cognitive restructuring? People generally don't like those who are unhappy/depressed and depression does make you feel less confident about your work, which may then lower the quality of your work.

If you don't fit in, that doesn't mean you can't do a good job or be useful anywhere. I'm sure you're still doing something right at work. Sometimes people say bad things but your results should speak for themselves.

i was thinking of same thing volunteering. that would be good enough
im a good worker its just that i lack interpersonal and communication skills

i will look out for some volunteering opportunities


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09 Apr 2014, 9:46 pm

MindBlind wrote:
Where do you currently live? I have a list of Suicide Hotlines that you can call (at least you won't have to be alone). Just click on the link corresponding to the place you currently stay. If you feel you are at a serious risk of harming yourself, you should call an ambulance or travel to the emergency room.

Just make sure that you are safe. Even if you can't physically be with people, try to call somebody at least. And take good care of yourself.

But y'know what? The economy is tanking. They prolly laid you off because they wanna save some money and not because you're a bad worker.

i wasnt working for money could have told on my face that im poor worker and i wouldnt get a raise
but they went on degrading me
comparing me with other useless worthless colleagues
they somehow just didnt want me around
i wasnt fitting in with their younger new recruites


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