My life has become nothing but pain, cruelty, ignorance, lonelyness, unfairness, poverty, etc...
How do you cope with the feelings that follow? It's not so much feeling bad about yourself as much as it is disdain towards the order of things and how NT's treat those they deem weaker... how people treat animals by turning them into personal slaves/pets, how people treat those with mental disorders as if they don't deserve an equal share of this world... I made peace with the fact that the way I was born and other beings were born, nothing is likely to change.
It reminds me of the tale of a frog and a scorpion.... there are several versions but the one i heard went like this:
A scorpion is walking through the jungle when he hits a river. Unable to swim, the scorpion sees a frog and asks the frog if he can ride on his back while the frog swims through to the other side?
Sure enough the kind frog agrees and starts swimming its way across the river with the scorpion sitting on his back. After arriving to the other side of the river the scorpion stings and kills the frog.... the frog... lying there in horrible pain dying asks the scorpion..... SCORPION! WHY DID YOU STING ME AFTER I HELPED YOU? The scorpion answered... "BECAUSE I'M A SCORPION".
The lesson of this story? NT's will bully, use us, and hurt us any chance they get just because it is in their nature. This is not going to change. What's the solution for aspies here? I don't know... but whatever it is, it will not happen naturally.
Until change does come we all have a lot of pain and sufferring ahead of us and so do our children and our children''s children (or if you don't have kids, your fellow aspies).
21 May 2014, 2:27 pm
