I keep thinking a bout cutting myself and death.

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I keep thinking about death.i dont want to kill myself, but i wonder what it would feel like to cut myself.break my my bones on purpose.I enjoy biting my cheek.i am suspected to have clinical depression,and my anxiety meds are supposed to help,but do not. i am in puberty though, so i don't know if this is just a phase or what.

Puberty has a way to mess with one's mind quite a bit. Adults' brains and children's brains are very different, and during the short time of puberty, your brain transforms from one to the other. Depression and such are normal in people going through that, and brain wiring like ours often complicates matters. I'm not saying its easy to make it through, all I'm saying is its not as long as it seems

Like you said, hopefully, it's just a phase. I've been depressed to the point of suicide, too. I hate that feeling. I want to do nothing more than stay in bed and forget about the outside world. Medicine, exercise, etc seems to help my mood - a little. I guess it's one day at a time.

The Squid just wants you to know that you aren't alone. We too, have had similar feelings at some time or another. We cannot say if it's a phase or not, but we did get over it. It may be linked to some mild depression, or you could simply be curious. Just make sure you keep these curiosities just that... Curiosities.


Edit: P.S. If you are curious about death, a good book that is very stimulating in that department is "Sum" by David Eagleman. Try it out, it's a good read, and perhaps if you explore this topic a bit, you will be able to move onto another, (perhaps more happy) one?

You really don't want to break your bones on purpose.

Fractures really, REALLY hurt!

And they could deform you, if not treated properly.

At your age it is normal to have questioning and with depression comes negative thoughts. Try to turn your thoughts to the positive - healing yourself and life -

If you think negatively too much and for too long, it becomes a pattern that is hard to break.

I am also still technically still in puberty and suffering bad myself from depression etc and lost of other issues I have had and still have in my life. Your not alone If you feel it will pass by all means just keep on going but if it just keeps getting worse please seek help that is the mistake I have made and I'm only just starting to now.

I couldn't criticise anyone for self-harming like that, because I do the same thing just indirectly with my various addictions.

Though if I could urge the OP to hold out until you're old enough to get tattoos and piercings, they're a much more attractive way to mutilate oneself, and a hell of a lot safer.