Constant anxiety, I don't know how much longer I can do this

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My anxiety seems to be getting worse and worse, everything in my head is a worst-case scenario, and I'm feeling paranoid. None of it makes any sense. I haven't been able to put it into words because I'm afraid if I do it will come true, but I really need help.

My boyfriend and I have been together almost 7 months, and I am constantly afraid that he will leave at any moment. I'm afraid if I don't look, feel, speak, or act exactly right that he will leave. He has never given me any reason to believe this, but I am afraid if I tell him I'm feeling this way that he will think I'm crazy and leave anyway.

I'm constantly afraid I will be fired from my job, or flunk out of school, even though I am making straight A's in school and have never been written up at work.

I have a son who is 5 1/2 who lives out of town with his dad and step-mom, and every time I ask to visit they are either busy or sick or out of town or something, and I'm afraid that his step-mom, who is having her own baby in August, doesn't want me to be involved anymore. I feel like she wants her family to be just her and my ex, I feel like she wants me out of the picture, she even has my son calling her "mom".

I'm afraid of going broke because I am already way below the poverty line.

My apartment is very small and gets cluttered easily, and this makes my anxiety worse, so I compulsively clean and re-organize at an OCD level.

I just feel like I'm afraid of everything lately and I don't know why, I wasn't always like this, at least not nearly this bad. It's just... everything.

Hi,Onewithwings. I'm sorry to hear about your struggle with anxiety.I go through it off and on,too. I can't say I'm over it,or ever will be,but i have learned ways to deal with it.Maybe you could read up on it,maybe find something that works for you. I was told that most of the things we worry about most likely won't happen anyway,so that's one thing I try to think about.Sometimes I can be very hyper vigilant,waiting for something to go wrong. I don't like to have negative things happen to me,but in reality,when I look back,I may not like what I went through,but I did get through it Anxiety can cause us to think a lot of irrational things,but talking to someone else about it will not make it happen. I've been through that fear also,with panic attacks and I believe the more we can learn about anxiety,the symptoms and what to do,coping strategies etc.,we can have better more enjoyable lives.Also,if you use a lot of caffeine,that will definitely trigger anxiety.I'm up and down with my caffeine consumption(coffee) and I see a huge difference in my anxiety when I have too much. Please,don't suffer alone,there is help out there,even talking about it with someone you trust,or journaling and getting it out in the open can be helpful. Never give up,YOU CAN MAKE IT!

I have always had anxiety. It was on and off at first and not so intense, but worsened over time. I eventually saw some doctors and tried different meds. Once I found the right one for me, the anxiety was reduced dramatically. It made a big improvement to my life.