I am sick of life and people

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I am 21 and have Asperger's. I feel that no one understands me. Everyone thinks that I am suppose to have my life figured out by now. People expect me to be like other people my age. I work part-time, go to school, and still live at home. I have only ever had one job which I have now. A lot of people my age are way ahead of me because they have more job experience and they know what they want to do. Most people my age have dated and I have never had a girlfriend. I have always been socially awkward and have never had many friends either. People don't understand all of the struggles that I have gone through. It is really frustrating that nobody understands me. They just because I am 21 I should put all of my childhood things behind me and start developing adult interests. Things don't come easily to me as they do to other people. I am completely different than most people and I feel all alone because I have no one to relate to. People just expect me to change. They don't realize how much harder I have it.

I understand. I have AS too. I have the same struggles. You are not alone.

21 is very young and I assure you NOBODY has life figured out.

The blessing and curse of being on the autistic spectrum is the unique perspective it can offer on collective human behavior and all things "societal" and what total farcical nonsense most of it is.

If so many people had life "figured out" there would not be so many unhappy people in the world and all the conflict that goes with it.

I sometimes consider that high functioning autism isn't really Autism at all but a different type of human being that is possibly more evolved and in the process of spreading and becoming more prevalent than "NT's" or maybe this is just wishful thinking because in all honesty the only thing causing my pain and stress in life, making me feel misunderstood and alienated is them and their way of thinking. I love the world, just not with them in it.

Anyhow before I get totally off topic.....

21 was a very difficult time for me as I was first really coming to terms with how much I was at odds with the world and it sounds like you are having similar troubles too. If I could go back and give myself any advice it would be to ignore other peoples expectations and really work as best you can to be as good as possible at whatever thing/s it is your are interested in so you have a better chance of finding employment doing something you love and that plays to your strengths.

As for having a girlfriend...your time will come but for now try and enjoy the emotionally uncomplicated life that comes with not having one, I wish I could but the women in my life are pretty much my handlers and personal assistants and I don't think I could cope without them (I also can't cope with them so I guess I'm f****d either way)

Ignore everything I wrote above WE ARE ALL DOOMED!

Most people on here have had similar issues. You came to the right place.

Welcome to the club, it sucks.

I know how frustrating that can be. But 21 is still very young, and every 21-year-old that I know all still live at home with their parents and are in their first job and haven't met the right boy/girlfriend yet, some have not dated yet at all. And these are all NTs. It's when you get to mid-20's is when people start to make you feel ashamed of still living at home and not knowing what you want to do and not having a boy/girlfriend. People shouldn't be criticising you at your age. Not everyone's ready to figure it all out at 21.

Where I live, young people are lucky to have a job. Non-snobby people are happy for you whatever job you're in. I just do part-time cleaning at a care home, it's not really what I want to do but it's a start, and at least it's a job. Now I feel I want to be an assistant at a preschool, so I am now looking into that. I have got a boyfriend now, but this is my first time I've been in a relationship with somebody who I feel is right for me. It is still early days, but he is similar to me and so hopefully we will be fine together (and he is NT). But I am 3 years older than you OP, so don't let that make you feel bad about yourself. I still live at home though, and so does my brother, who is nearly 28.

When I was 21, I was like you. I didn't have a boyfriend and admitted that I still didn't feel ready for a relationship. I didn't even have a job yet, I was on unemployment benefit and could not find a suitable job because nobody would take me on. I done voluntary work though, and people were proud of me for that. I didn't go out and about much because I didn't have many friends, so I just hung out with my family.

Yes and sometimes I feel like I can just kill somebody.
I am very lonely.
I feel very pressurized to study.