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It's been a stressful week, and I know next week will be stressful. The week after will probably be even worse. I can't seem to focus on or care about my interests at the moment. I've been thinking to much about my future. It all seems so pointless.
I don't have any friends here, I don't think I will ever have new friends. I don't have any connections with anyone. I'm alone. I'm tired of watching other people make friends around me.
School is expensive, I can't afford it, nor do I think I can survive it. I can barely keep up with the classes I have, and I'm not doing good at it. I have already dropped out of the college of my choice.
I can't hold a job and my supply of cash is dwindling down to only a few hundred dollars.
I don't seem to have any marketable talents.
I don't amount to anything. There isn't any place for me here in this life. None of my dreams or aspirations will happen.
I'm exhausted by life and I don't think that it will ever improve. Death seems somewhat attractive. I might as well be dead.
All I have done is invent impossible goals for myself. It's all vanity and meaningless. I will never have the skills to become a surgeon. I will never become a writer or a musician. I will never amount to anything. I'm not even brave enough to get help, and no one will ever hear my cries.

*hugs* The only thing I can say is that if one path isn't working for you try another. And I don't mean suicide. I mean if school's not working for you try something else. I know how you feel. I can't get a job and I'm coming to the realization that I'm unemployable. I am meeting with a vocational counsellor through disability services - sometimes they can match up candidates with willing employers.
I can't really suggest anything specific as I don't know what path may present itself to you. Don't feel bad about not reaching the goals you mentioned, sometimes the things you're good at you don't even know about until you find them. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and you'll get somewhere. And don't worry about the future, there are so many possibilities it's untenable.

I'm listening

and you matter; don't ever forget that.

What are your dreams? What type of surgeon do you want to become? What musical instrument do you want to learn? Set some small goals for yourself because looking far into the future can sometimes be overwhelming.