I can't deal with the arrogance and bigotry here anymore...

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It's starting to give me the urge to spray my brains on the wall. I really don't want to occupy the same universe as such people. I've had enough. I guess they win. They refuse to see their toxic effect on others. They might as well be deriving pleasure from pouring salt in the wounds of people already suffering. It seems people no longer think. They just swallow up the narcissistic ideals of the dominant culture and don't even consider the morality of it. They refuse to open their eyes harmfulness of the ideas they promote. From now on such people are as good as dead to me. I will go out of my way to avoid showing any kindness whatsoever to people of their like. They are not fully human to me. They are simply creatures, machines, fed by BS for which they have no mental capacity to question. I could stare into their eyes and see that there's absolutely nothing there. They are robots. Blind sheep. But they refuse to see it, for they are stubborn as mules, blinded by sheer narcissism. I simply cannot fathom them. They are not sentient for they do not feel. They do not learn. They're just simple animals. Devoid of the capacity to reflect. Devoid of compassion. Devoid of curiosity regarding the experience of others. Devoid of basic humanity.

You're never going to get everyone to agree with you. Deep breaths, let it go...

I assume this is about the welfare thread ... I read through a bit of it as I too am on disability and am unable to work right now.

I think it is hard for people who support themselves not to be a bit smug - they are of higher value to society. We are a bit of a weight. I'm not sure what I'm going to do about it. I don't like to be a burden and I am capable of hard work - it's the communication that is a problem for me.

What he said.

You're getting worked up over the words of someone who uses phrases like "vibrating on a higher plane". Is he really worth it?

I don't really have a choice. Maybe you have a choice, but you're chemically balanced. I'm not. Be thankful you can control your emotions. I really can't. I'm out of control. That's what suffering all the time does to you after a while. I don't think many people can imagine my level of frustration. I'm truly tired of the chemical torture my own brain unleashes on me day after day. When I'm hurting so much all the time I can't deal with people talking down to me. I wont tolerate abuse anymore. I'm tired of it. I wish they could just take a step back and be thankful they don't have to deal with severe depression that doesn't respond to medication. Instead they stand on their high horse and attack people who are already suffering. I want people to know how they affect me. Maybe I hope they have a small shred of empathy. But then I doubt it. Maybe it isn't worth it to hate these people, but they constantly trigger me. I feel like I have to apologize to these asswipes for existing. I'm just struggling to survive here.

Have you tried weed?

I don't think we're a tangible burden. I don't see these people weighed down. I don't see them suffering because of me. I also do volunteer work, so I do contribute something. I would like to have paid work and I'm planning on looking again. I'm just not reliable because on bad days I'm too sick to get up. The chemical depression gets so bad it's like having the flu. You just feel utterly exhausted. All these cocky judgemental people make me hate myself for it. I try my hardest but that's just not good enough for some people. I just want to slash myself up and bleed all over. The frustration is just too much to bear. It's too much and this world full of as*holes makes it 100 times worse.

I feel that I am a financial burden on society, so I try to make my self useful in other ways. Like you mention volunteering. I also try to remain as little a burden as possible by taking care of myself (and my animals.)

Don't hurt yourself over that drivel in Love and Dating. Seriously, what a couple of people in this huge world write is not all that important.

Very dangerous for aspies and people who are chemically unbalanced. If you're going to self-medicate, then it's clearly the best option out there, but for people like us who tend to rely on routines and really want an escape, it's incredibly easy to get addicted to the high. It can help with the pain for a time, but can easily lead to further isolation and hurt more in the long run.

is there a link to the welfare thread, please?

Sorry to hear this, marshall. I am basically the same way. I learned that the only way to deal with it, for me at least, is to just fight ignorance and knock it off its high horse. People will tell you to ignore it, but that can only go so far. Plus, ignoring it just breeds more of it.

i apologize

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why is the love and dating section so unloving?

I think it is the people who are kind to others are the most valuable to society. People who support themselves do not always meet that standard.

I didn't go over all of it, but the last several pages seemed to indicate it was one person you had problems with. There's always someone you will not get along with in any group, but they don't represent the whole group, and its best just to avoid one another. Its pretty easily done on a forum.

Some people are dicks, there are too many of them to take too much of what they say to heart. You know yourself and no one else can tell you any differently, I wouldn't heed much attention to the ignorant. I don't feel like I am a bad person, I don't feel like I need to justify my existence in any way, I am what I am and I'm working on it to the best of my abilities. Maybe one day they'll know, maybe one day they'll find themselves in a similar situation and understand.