Hello guys, I have a question regarding my mentality. So I am generally a very nice guy and easy to get along with unless we do not get along or there is a problem. So to get to my question if I am remotely a narcissist, I will give you some examples that maybe I am mildly narcissistic. Whenever I get rejected by a guy I really want, I tend to get angry in my mind and take my anger out on them without actually doing it. There was a guy that we went on three dates, I thought he was the one and then he rejected me saying he can't do the relationship but yet he is on a dating site. He stopped talking to me, and I developed a deep hatred for him, It was hard to take no. I suddenly had thoughts where I wish he could see we would be at least good f**k buddies. But obviously my desires don't matter in his case. Here is another example. At work there is a girl/training manager whom I find so shallow and just rude. She isn't very nice to me and I constantly have this theory she's a power hungry b***h and she's friends with one of the regular workers and is a favortist. I wish i could be in authority at my work but obviously that ain't happening. I feel like I would get what I want if I was really much more attractive and know I could easily attract anyone. I really want to be in a metal band and I feel like I would be somewhat fixated on how I think something should sound like. I had these thoughts where I feel like I can manipulate people and my environment if I ever wanted to, but I have feelings and so do other people (I care about). The people I dislike, some of them deserve my anger but I never followed through with anything. I am an abrasive person and really like stuff to be my way. Any thoughts? I'm not a full blown narcissist, A lot of these emotions are internalized.
10 Nov 2014, 2:10 pm
