I'll start off by saying I'm soooo confused right now. I didn't even know this site existed until just a few minutes ago but for some reason I have an account that I accessed with my usual information from 2013? I must have completely forgotten I signed up here...oh well, this will come in handy now.
So, I'm an 19 year old female with a diagnosis of Aspergers, and I've had a ton of trouble with obsession and fixation most of my life. As I've gotten older my horizon of interests has broadened considerably, which has lessened this somewhat, but it's still there. When I was a little kid, I was completely obsessed with the Pokemon franchise, and it consumed most of my daily existence. It's taken me years to get to a point where I can say I'm in 'remission' from that, even though of course it's something I will always love.
When I fixated on certain things as a kid, it never hurt, because I was in my own little world and didn't know any better. However, as I've gotten older that's steadily changed. I'm quite nerdy, and whenever I get into a new series that I really, really like, I feel like I get trapped by my fixation with that series, be it a videogame or a TV show. Not only am I more self-conscious of my obsessions then I used to be, making me feel social awkward in public, I'm also aware of the fact that I do NOT want to think about that one thing 24/7. And yet I feel like I don't have any control over it, because the slightest stimuli will make my brain go back to that thing again.
I've recently started into a new videogame series for me that I'm absolutely thrilled by so far. However, it's got me SO excited that I can't seem to get it off my mind! I was talking with my younger sister on Facebook earlier and I was so eager to talk about it that I nearly exploded, and ended up going into massive detail about the story and characters until she was bored to death and stopped talking to me. It's steadily been dawning on me since then that my fixation on this series is ruining it's appeal for me- more or less, I'm burning out on it. I guess I'm asking, does anyone have any advice? I really need to find a way to relax and re-focus my mind on something else and not fall to pieces next time I go to play it.
14 Nov 2014, 11:22 pm
