I can't take it anymore

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I don't know how i feel. I feel angry, sad ....not sure. I feel as though everyone thinks that I am stupid, that I am confused and unable to do anything right. They look down on me, almost as though they see me was a child. I can see it by looking at the way they speak to me and the things they say. they think that i am simple minded, as though I was unable to comprehend what was goimg on. i don't wan't to speak to anyone, yet i'm forced to because that is how everybody expects you to act. I want to be alone- by myself in my room. i can't seem to do anything right- almost as though every decision that I have ever made was a mistake.
i'm on anti depresents and they don't seem to make a difference- in fact everything seems to be getting worse. I seem to experience something new everyday - one day i'l be arranging things in my room perfectly, following tiles in my room afraid to go outside, and the next i'll be ok.I feel as though i no longer know who i am. i seem to be trying to find something that i've lost-the problem is i am not sure what it is. My 'friends' don't seem to understand ,it's hard trying to explain something when you are unable to find the right words to express yourself. I just want to be alone

Wow, you've just expressed nearly the same sentiments i have. I have been trying to explain to my mom and to my boyfriend how i feel that people talk down to me like i am a child. I am not slow and i don't need people to mother me, but that's what they seem to do, especially one of my roomates. I can't stand it and i got into a row with her the other day. My mom told me that often people do that so that they can feel better about themselves by putting others down. I decided to not put up with that anymore (i am not a confrontational person so i just let it slide) but i can't take it anymore. I decided to stand up for myself. I may have trouble comprehending others (auditory processing disorder) but that doesn't mean i am dumb. I am sure that i have other social issues as well that are getting in the way of me seeming to be a functional adult that does not need help. I come across as childish it seems, though i do not know y that is. But i am not, so I am going to work on that. Like you, expressing myself, what i think and feel, is very hard. Even though I know what something is, I can't tell others, so this is probably part of my problem. So anyway, what I am saying, is you are not alone in this. Try being more self confident. You know what you are doing, so screw what others think of you. It doesn't matter if they think u are incapable. Just do what you know you need and want to do. They'll start leaving you alone and stop talking down to you once you start standing up for yourself (i am still experimenting with this but i have seen some limited results so far.)

i can relate... most people think im stupid, even though i seem to ace most things at college... people who meet me outside college think im slow...

just be yourself, there are people who will accept you for who you are, like me and jnet, and im sure thye rest of the guys at WP.

Thanx, at least now I know that i am not the only one who feels this way. I feel your pain as well
The thing is, there are times when you can let such things slide, but there comes a point when everything.... just comes undone. Things pile up and you become overwhelmed. the funny thing is i haven't always felt like this - probably because i had limited contact with other people when i was growing up, so I guess i never learned to adapt to their actions Anyway, i'll try being more self confident, keep my chin up and smile (on the inside - people think i'm unfriendly ) Thanx a lot, I feel better now

and REMEMBER... 'if they have a problem with you' then its them with the problem (basic logic )

I can also relate. Depression is a huge thing for AS people...or so I've read.

I suffered for many many years.
People still think I'm stupid. My Mother has always said that I'm intelligent but not smart (meaning I have no common sense). I have trouble functioning and thinking 'along the same tracks' as others...their thoughts seem to lead to a practical and functional outcome, whilst mine lead to a full analysis of all the possible outcomes of a certain action. Therefore I miss the point a lot and people think I'm incredibly stupid.

It doesn't sound like you're on the right medication either. Anti-depressants should be helping even a little. You might need to swap to another type of anti-depressant, or it might be wise to consult with a psychiatrist who can evaluate you for other disorders that require a different type of drug altogether. With the right drugs, you can start feeling more like yourself again.

I hope you can get the help you need. There are a lot of people here who can obviously understand where you're coming from, so maybe even talk to some of them and see how they cope.