Lately I've found that I have got better with socialising and connecting with others, but I have become more careless, clumsy and forgetful, which I never used to be like at all. In fact I do feel like I am stupid. I keep accidentally breaking health and safety rules at work and the supervisors keep getting cross with me. I feel like an idiot. Also I keep becoming forgetful, hyperactive, and very disorganised.
While I prefer this to making social errors, I still feel annoyed at times and sometimes I feel like not going to work and just doing something where I can be my own boss, but as usual life is not as simple as that. I wish I was either rich and didn't have to work, or was intelligent and could make a career out of a special interest. But I don't even have a special interest any more. I'm suddenly finding myself thinking inside the box, and work would be more bearable if I wasn't so careless and stupid.
I left a voluntary job I used to do before I got this paid job, because I kept getting moaned at by the manager for making a mess and getting distracted and not concentrating on my work. But now I think I've got worse. It's not social faux pas that's pointed out to me any more. If anything I'm very accepted now. Instead it's my clumsiness. It's getting me down at work, and I don't want to go any more because I hate being yelled at every day.
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18 Dec 2014, 5:34 pm
