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I worked ten hour shifts in CGI modeling this week. I had friday off so being the itinerant aspie I am I got a double shot cappuccino and studied as much as I could before a friend got back to me last afternoon. A few hours later I learned from him that an old friend's father had passed away from pancreatic cancer. This guy has been my brother since 2nd grade. Now he's a veteran Army medic. His (step) father understood me better in recent years than my own dad. The cancer was a result of his dedication as a fire/rescue EMT. He offered to help me when he identified with my PTSD after I became a homicide witness. I was never able to take up his gracious concession. Of course when I learned this I said we had to raise a glass so I was handed an I.P. permaban at my friend's place downtown when I responded to the "What are you drinking right now?" thread censoring myself with the not-pg13 name of the brew we acquired. I seriously hope I haven't offended any of my friends here. I know Alex & I are both open source people working for a kinder world and I care about his well-being as much as he does mine.

I love you all. Thank you for reading.

This thread is dedicated to those who we all miss and Katia who showed me the strength and love to endure times like these. Please send positive thoughts to my friend Hunter as well.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Not here to bump my own thread, only to say I know this is nigh absurdly heavy subject matter and I 100% understand all your apprehension in replying. Rest assured I'm not an easy guy to shake up. If you're in any kind of remotely similar situation I'd be happy to offer my two cents and I would strongly encourage you to arrange your thoughts in writing, anywhere you choose to do so.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Sorry for your loss. Pancreatic cancer is an aggressive type. Cancer takes too many too soon.

Many thanks. Yeah it got my grandfather a few years ago and a good friend of my mom last year. The departed battled that monster for at least almost two years, probably quite a bit longer. I know he kept road tripping and enjoying sidecar motorbikes until quite recently so at least I know things happened on individual terms. It's a minor miracle we live somewhere with high-CBD medical marijuana. My friend helped his parents grow a really good strain and I know ASDs should be right up there on the list of relevant conditions next to the life-threatening stuff, it's a great thing to see psyches become as tough as the people representing them.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos