Well, then I should come clean and say that the "anti-anxiety medication" I was referring to was soy. I don't know why, but I'm a weirdo who reacts to certain foods very strongly, and soy (which if you search PubMed, you can see studies on mice claiming it to be have anti-anxiety properties) really really has an effect that calms me down. I ate a small amount accidentally recently after being off it (and casein and gluten -- both of which make me really sick) for a few years and the next day, after a raging headache that lasted 12 hours, I felt like instead of being dragged down by dark thoughts, I was on a trampoline that pushed me up. My moods were more stable and I didn't dwell on things as much. Then I got the headache again a few days later and the trampoline feeling went away. I ate more soy and it came back.
Because I get such a strong reaction from seemingly normal things, like soy (and other things), I am also very anti-drug, pharmaceutical or recreational. But having this intense calming reaction from soy made me more aware of what thoughts were probably due to a chemical imbalance and what life can be like without that weight from the unwanted anxious thoughts dragging me down. I get some other, unwanted side effects from soy, so I'm experimenting now with small doses. But it has made me see that pharmaceuticals, one day, might be something I am more open to. The way I see it, it's like I naturally have a lame leg, and I could get a wheelchair.
Anyway, I didn't want to say anything, because I have some sort of complex with being perceived as a weirdo (ahem...aspergers PTSD...) so I try not to talk about my bizarre food things much because all I have are a scattered handful of studies to explain why this could be (and why no one else seems to get this reaction -- I know, I live in Japan, where everyone's on soy and everyone's still grumpy).
Anyway. There it is. (Sorry to be so weird about it.)
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Diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder 19 June 2015.