I am so tired of feeling alone around people

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I'm just sick of it. I'm tired of not being able to relate to people, for everyone being busy with school and work, with friendships and communities breaking up. It seems college is really the only place I have a speck of any feeling of social connection, where people seem interesting and have some emotional and mental depth where they don't seem like a zombie to me, where I can connect with them. I just want to be happy, but I guess that's too much to ask this stupid life of mine that insists on screwing over my desire for connection at EVERY. SINGLE. TURN. Everyone I do meet leaves, and I feel like I'm just going to lose it.

Many here can relate.
Many feel an aching loneliness that is hard to express and even harder to take.
Do you have some online relationships?
What has happened when you try to interact irl?

It's sad to know that such feelings of loneliness and being cut off (disconnected) are quite common in those with autism. Can you meet fellow autistic people where you live? Don't knock those who have the same thing as you either. I think it's better to find someone that could be more of a match. I just cannot see myself being with an NT. I just...can't. I cannot say why. But chin up. Life is worth living.

I'm sure you play snooker with NT's.

Isn't your "best mate" an NT?

My suggestion to you is to get a pet cat that you like and is right for you that you will be able to love and not worry about connecting with people. You want to be close to those friends/family you see the most, but beyond that, you shouldn't expect your life to involved others so much because their lives may off in directions different from yours.

When you don't have much in common, it is harder to feel connected to another. That doesn't mean you need to though. If you have little in common, maybe you should look for more friends that have more in common. Also, people can appear/disappear, are reliable/unreliable...You shouldn't invest heavily in always connecting with others.

Learn to accept your own company since you are by yourself a lot. If you want more company, definitely invest in a cat.

Cats do understand autism.

My best friend when I was 15 was a Persian named Zum Zum

Um, no comment.

I gave up my flat, by the way. I kind of had to. If they are going to tag me and deny me access to the accommodation for even more months, that clearly means I cannot go back. So I had enough of the waiting. That isn't to say it would have been a permanent decision via the court, but giving what occurred, I just had to face the facts. There are other homes.

Your best mate is on the Spectrum? Cool!

I'm still sure at least some people you play snooker with are NTs.

No, he hasn't been diagnosed. I think he has 'something', but I don't know what.

Since all this crap with my previous support workers ruined my life, my confidence and general happiness has declined drastically.