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I feel like I am all the time constantly feeling anxious, nervous, uncomfortable. I am really frustrated right now for many reasons. One is that I am sick of being in the house all the time, but at the same time I do not feel comfortable around other people, and I hate feeling like this inside. I have asked my primary care doctor for a referral so I can hopefully get a diagnosis, get tested/ evaluated for Asperger's syndrome. Not sure what it is going to do for me, but I have had over 25 to 30 different jobs since I was seventeen, and now I am 36, it is very frustrating to me not being able to hold a job, especially when it would really help my family if I could work right now and keep a job without having any problems. My oldest son who is from my first marriage is going to be 15 in September, and he has decided to go to live with his dad for this school year. This hurts so bad. This is not all that is bugging me , but all I feel like writing about right now. Just needed to talk to someone/ get some things off my chest.
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Tabitha

Tabitha's a nice name.

I wouldn't like to be stuck in the house myself.

Do you live in a rural, or an urban place?

If rural, you could amble around observing nature. If urban, you could go to a bookstore and read a while--or go the library. If you have money, you could see a movie.

I have felt this way recently; I lost a friendship with a girl whom I saw as a sister. That a a few other things from low gpa to failing to graduate with friends due to changing majors. I felt trapped and depressed/anxiouse all the time. I was having dificulties organizing my emotions to the point where I was having meltdowns several times a day. I lost interest in my interests and I wanted to die. One thing that my therapist told me at our last meeting was that I needed to go through the 5 stages of grief and that after doing so It was not all how I wanted it, but I was able to accept the reality of my situations as they were. I had a depressive relaps and I vented on this server as I did not even know how I was feeling. I recieved replies saying that I needed to grieve through the situation to reach where I needed to be. Another thing my therapist told me was to feel my emotions and not manipulate them, but let them run their course and observe them. Anyway I hope this helps, it helped me a lot just talking.

Thank you for the info, I will keep that in mind.