Think I should just kill my self

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what is the best way? paracetamol? I did read helium.

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you are a talented guy. your death would be a loss to society. i think paracetomal is acetominophen. that would kill your liver and you'd wind up needing a transplant. helium is supposed to be painless, but you'd need to work out your logistics for administration well. why don't you let us know what is making you feel so bad instead?

okay, i read your other thread. your wife left. lots of folks feel like killing themselves when they lose a spouse. please accept that you'll feel lousy FOR A WHILE, maybe six months, maybe more. then you will have picked up the pieces and made a new life. you have your kids. you reached out to an old friend. you are good at your job. you still have your video games. the best revenge is living well. you are resourceful. you will likely get to that point.

i'm sorry. it's late here and i have an early morning. i hope to communicate with you tomorrow.

I am just losing it, first weekend alone. I am sick of pretending I am finding this easy. I just want to cry.

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I am crying, guess that's progress.

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I know one person that tried to commit suicide with acetaminophen. It didn't work, and was quite unpleasant. I knew one person that tried a chemical, nearly died, and it was a horrible experience for that person. That same person did manage to commit suicide a few years later. It was awful.

I feel like I want to kill myself all the time, because I can't see a way out. But then something good will happen, and I will think "I'm glad I'm alive to see this." Nobody knows the future. But if you die, you will never have a chance to see what happens. There will certainly be no more opportunities for happiness if you are dead.

Sorry if this seems like a lecture. I was imagining killing myself just tonight actually. But I always manage to talk some sense into myself. And that's what I'm trying to do for you.

...I wouldn't recommend that .

It is your choice, but it's a really bad idea. You can't take it back. You can, however, always wait to see what happens in the future. It's not like you won't have the opportunity again. The person I knew that committed suicide could have done something with his life. He was young and gave up. And he had a young child, who grew up not knowing a father.

I've been miserable almost my whole life but I'm still here trying. And I'm glad I haven't done it, even though I think about it all the time. After all this time, why should I give up now before I get what I want? Maybe I'm just stubborn.

Going to give it a week.

I know heroin is best way so going to buy some. think I can afford 20 fixes.

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I think to give it the best chance, you should seek out some real support during the week. It's a major change in your life. Get a therapist or some kind of support group if you can tolerate it.

Honestly a week probably isn't enough. When I was sexually assaulted, it took me probably 5-6 weeks before I felt somewhat normal. I was a mess. Now I don't think about it often, although I probably just ignore my feelings. I'm getting my life back in order already and it was just a few months ago. I know it's not the same thing, but for me it was traumatic.

Major life changes can be really hard, but most people learn a "new normal" and are able to adapt, if they give it a chance.

Don't do it. All you need is a bit of luck. Things change.

You've had a terrible thing happen but something better might come along soon. I've known people who've met partners far more suited to them, and who they loved more, after the first one left them.

You are operating with incomplete information.

You need to stick around to see what happens.

You should read "The Rosie Project"