What can I do?
As of the end of this month, the 26 weeks of unemployment I'm on will be over, if I go for the annoying EBT cash crap it would only be up to $200 per month, which is half of rent before electricity. I don't really know what else I can do. There aren't many workplaces nearby and even when they're hiring the jobs are already gone as soon as I ask, so the job market sucks. I want to be a writer, but I'm better at writing complaints, arguments, and mockeries of bureaucratic policies than novels. Still everything I write ends up becoming a letter to my wife who abandoned me right after her probation ended. I just can't focus on anything since she has been gone. If she'd just come back, I could work further out. I love her and not just her ability to drive a car (I space out even when riding a bike, and thereby kick my own butt readily, so driving a car is not something I ever want to try), but it would help if she'd just come back. I only have two more payments of unemployment to go before it's over. I hope Jackie returns while I still have the money to pay for our marriage license, otherwise I may have to spend it on food. I love Jackie, even if some random lady appeared out of nowhere and was willing to put up with me and drive us wherever we needed to go, I would still choose Jackie over anyone else. I don't know how to repair things between Jackie and me, but whatever it takes I'm willing to do. I don't know how I am going to survive, but God has provided thus far for me and my birds, I just wish He would bring Jackie and me back together now.
15 Jan 2016, 4:31 am
