My physical state .

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I didn't get to a computer Sun. or M-Tu . The SF Main Library is at 100 Larkin . The shelter I am at is at 1001 Polk .
I am not in the modern Google Maps era , but some of you no doubt are .
It took me two hours or so to get down the hill , wearing my backpack , from the shelter to the library . (This included a " eating and reading the paper , on the sidewalk " break , admittedly but...I got my posterior cold tho my torso got warmer .)
I took MANY ! " stopping and leaning on a meter/fence"/whatever breaks .
I just got tired so much .
The open wounds on my toe remnnants are improving .
Thg belt buckly in my pants HURTS ! in my stomach !

...It tends to be rather cold in the shelter , and I tend to get my clothes/bedstuff wet , and I am going to another , farther-away , Goodwill to try and get some stuff there to be warm ~ There was little in my large size at the smaller Goodwill near me ~ This especially goes for pants/slacks with belts , my size .
I gained weight due to the my-kidneys-fucking-up weight gain , too .

...Let me ,, please , speak of my crippled , slow , walking and my kidneys fucking-up brought on weight gain .
I am at something like 325 pounds now , something like FIFTY pounds past my " normal " (too much admittedly) weight ~ and it's not even that I was eating all that much !
Yesterday , it took two hours to get from the first of the two addresses I gave to you to the 2nd , as I said .
To-day , feeling peppier , it took me 60-70 miniutesish to get from the shelter address to 45 Jones Street .
I'M A CRIPPLE ! !! !! !! !! !
Last night , I didn't go where I said I would go , as I decided at fivish , when the computer time was over , that the 1580 Mission Street Goodwill was simply too far away to get to (downhill) and back (uphill) with a load , and then to the bus stop and get to the shelter y the eight o'clock curfew .
(I got some bed stuff at the smaller Goodwill near the shelter ~ No Tuesday old-person discount that day , though .)

...My backpack , which I carry around all the time , is falling apart now it's starting to come unstrapped .
It is so over-cold , I am - with my body now needing REALLY large , XXL , shirts and pants due to my kidney-inspired weight gain having to get rather expensive XXL stuff , I'm cold .
I tend to lose stomach weight , as you lose weight where you're fat already , and I haven't eaten that much - And the leather belt buckle of the new belts I had to buy at Target to get something o hold my pants up HURT !
I eat to junk-y food - I give in too eadily to temptation outside , and in the shelter , they provide rather heavy food ~ If I could eat rather lightly but regularly , (have some occasional - diet - soda too) , have a computer , and REST MY FEET ! I could get better ~ but I can't .
I HURT AND I'M COLD . ETC.

...I REALLY HURT .
And , my bathroom/elimination situation is made bad , especially with the kidney-connected fluid retention .

...My legs and genitals bulge so much ' with my 50 pounds-ish of water weight ' that walking ' and even sitting , can be rather painful - bending over too .

I hope you feel better soon ASS-P.

...Thank you ' Peter , unfortun lately , I've got even more s**t to tell you have about me (not .now however) .

...As I said , the kidney-gained?? waiter weight , about fifty pounds , has me barely able to walk , tiring , oftentimes , after several steps ~ And , I am so swollen down below , I feel like I have a grapefruit between my thighs , and my legs are stuffed with suet/pudding !