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im a 15 yr old female recently diagnosed with depression, after years of suffering my mum decided to listen to me and relise something was wrong!
when she took me to the doctors the other day he said i WAS suffering from depression, but he was reluctant to treat me because of my age, so insted he reffered me to a centre for teenagers aged 13-19(i think) that helps teens with all sorts of problems like findind jobs, mental health ect.
when my mum took me there the counsellor wasnt there so the receptionist told my mum to ring up the next day and they would try to book an appointment for me, but she didnt think i would be seen because there is a long waiting list.
so like 3 weeks down the line im left alone and struggling so much i just want to end everything.
ive waited all my life for someone to listen and understand me(Self diagnosed aspie) but till this day nobody has, it seems as if nobody cares about teenage depression or the fact that i desperatly seek a diagnosis for aspergers and i yern for understanding, but now i have given up on the hope of any help at all.

if theres anyone on here that have experienced depression please leave a reply....please

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Different is cool-Luke Jackson, teen with aspergers.
Having aspergers is like a more extreme version of life, and i love it

well yes and my parents really think I have nothing wrong they think this aspergers thing won't effect me as much as it does and it will...
I know how you feel...I get depressed too, as I have no friends and no life

I'm older than your mother and I struggled with depression from about age 5 through my late 30's.


During much of that time I was so depressed that I was no longer suicidal, and so the thoughts of suicide in my college years were actually a sign of progress.


I took to self-medicating with caffeine, to the point that in my Navy years I was down to 2-4 hours of sleep per night for months on end. The doctor eventually took me off caffeine, put me on Elavil, got me into group therapy, and eventually got me out of the Navy.


I didn't really start getting better until I found a psychologist who was willing to look at the root causes of my depression instead of telling me that if I just learn a few more social skill my life will get much better.


Having the right shrink made all the difference in the world, as did the SSRI's I was on during much of my time with her. Drugs will probably not cure you, but they can get your mood up so that the psychotherapy can get some traction.




I know about being on the waiting list to get mental help. I drove to every public mental health facility in my home city, and don't remember how long I was on the waiting list. It sucks, but you can get past it. There are other people here who've been in the same boat.







Right now you are young, and even if you don't feel it you are beautiful and you are loved. Life can get better, but you have to make that happen, and right now you do that by waiting for the opportunity to see a shrink.


I also know that you're angry, because everyone is angry when they're 15 and depression just makes that worse, but you can use that anger to keep you going and not give up. If you start thinking about suicide, just tell yourself, "No. I'm not going to give the bastards the satisfaction."


Finally, as an exercise in thinking outside your depression, find a few things you like about yourself and write them down. Don't worry if it takes a while, depression can blind you to your good points. Are you funny? Do you have pretty eyes? Can you wiggle you ears? After you write them down, put them where you'll see them every day, like on your mirror.


Good luck. I'm rooting for you.

Thank you so much for your replies.
Ikari_Gendo your reply was so nice it made me cry tears of happiness, i was overjoyed that i have finally found someone who listened to what i had to say and was really supportive, thank you so very much :):)

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Different is cool-Luke Jackson, teen with aspergers.
Having aspergers is like a more extreme version of life, and i love it

One of the ways I keep cheer myself up is to try to help other people. Very glad to help you.


I hope your life starts getting better soon.