03 Jun 2016, 4:54 pm
( I really meant to post this as an addition to my active " New place !...Qualifiers..." post here but I clicked on the wrong button yet again 
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...The lack of regular meals conveniently is a real thing missing for me in this situation and it is causing me to spend too much money .
The free feeds require a lot of walking , the Glide one (the other is St. Anthony's) especially . To-day , going to St. Anthony's , when the last leg of going there came along , I wanted to go up a staircase to the door going in rather than ake a considerable walk around the corner and back again ~ It would have been more concentrated effort but of less duration to go up the stairs ~ but the particular staffer at the door was all stickler for the rules and said " You go around or you don't eat " .
I said " maybe you'll be crippled some day " . I went away , I didn't do any giant nasty words to sever my relationship , I went to a cheap grocery and spent $3.75?? I really shouldn'tve , I suppose , on some food there , eventually ate it sitting on a street corner across from St. A's .
I will say this , another St. A's worker did , not invited by me , come across the street and hand me a bag lunch .
I thnked him and took it .
People maybe do not understand how much my walking is hampered now . 
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
03 Jun 2016, 5:00 pm
03 Jun 2016, 5:03 pm
...No kitchen . Only one electric plug ~ meaning just one , not a set of two ~ and it seems to be an outmoded plug?? , without that third prong space I guess more modern plugs have...
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
03 Jun 2016, 6:07 pm
04 Jun 2016, 4:30 pm
...Only one - literally , one - plug , remember .
And a rather out of reach one , there are no tables .
no chairs to sit on , either , and the big old mattress makes my back hurt ~ I think that after all these years homeless , I am semi-accustomed to sleeping on hard surfaces .
The light , when there's not direct sunlight , is not quite enough for really comfortable reading at all times ~ Oh , I can read ~ but I'm kind of straining .
Conversely , the early morning sunlight and the white walls get my eyes too dazzled/light-affected - even with my sleep mask on and a blanket over my eyes - and I worry about that .
I tend to approach this as " I shouldn't load myself down to much , I'll likely have to move , one way or another " , in general , possessions-wise . This includes the " computer availability " matter (still banned from the library) .
Are you allowed hot plates?
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
07 Jun 2016, 5:26 pm
...Okay , since I discuss the problem St. Anthony gve me , I'll talk about my latest physicals here ~ However , in chronolgical order .
Yesterday , I was really weak/almost losing balance when I was finishing up here at this computer lab . I thought about trying to call the Emergency people and go to th hospital , doing it rom the building where my room is .
I thought " Well , if I'm in the hospital on Tuesday I could see some TV coverage of the primaries " but thought , also , that I would miss something I want(ed) to do this day ~ And if I didn't gt admitted ?
And I'd want to pack up some of my stuff to take it with me , and the ER/Fire Department types have given me s**t about that .
I had not really eathen since getting up finally that morning , IIRC , just due to hurriedness I think?? ~ I had got going too late for the noon feed .
Monday I did not get out of the place til' about 2 PM , IIRC .
I got , after leaving the lab , some maybe-not-the-healthiest food , at a dollar store I got a can of Chef-Boy-R-Dee ravioli and some TGIFriday potato skin crisps ~ and , at a Carl's Jr. , I got a California Cheeseburger Spcial , but substituting cheddar bacon fries for normal ones , and a cheese quesadilla and one taco and fruit punch & a strawberry lemonade refill~ Nifty , and sort of satisfying my curiosity about the b. c. fries , but to say the leastest not , uh , the " very healthiest " 
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After all of this I did feel better , and the off-balanceness was - mostly?? - gone .
I had had sort of " not enough money for major projects " on that day , the last day before my weekly SSDI piece comes in .
Today (Tuesday) it does .
I , after getting up , no clock and don't know what time , remember ~ Kind of still felt half-sleepy/tired , wanting to lie down some more ~ But , my eyes were affected by that glare , as I have mentioned (though less today as the sunlight wasn't direct) ~ Look , eyes getting damaged by excessive glare/light bounce is a REALITY ! !! !! 
Also , I had this weirdly sorta " drugged " feeling (opening the window wider reduced it some , anyway) in the room , which I'dfeflt to a lesser degree in other shelters ~ Old unsafe additives like lead or asbestos maybe ?
I got going , it was about 11:30 AM , too late to get to the Lab here before lunch ~ When I walked back home with the backpack on yesterday , IIRC I was pretty energetic , and didn't hurt/wasn't crippled/hampered that much ~ However , going out at 11:30 , I'm afraid I was hampered/feeling pain .
Evntually I made my way to the noon feed ~ Wherein they stared giving me s**t AGAIN about " You have to walk all the way around ! You can't take the stair up ! " ~ as they had , as I said , on a previous day .
So I didn't go in at all , bought some salty fried chicken at that rather " ghetto " grocry store agin . Maybe self-destructive , but , at least that time I didn't want to walk up all the way around and back again AS CRPPLED AS I AM !
With all this , I got to the Lab too late to reach the former shlter to try and rach my main doc there and find out for sure the (I'm anticipating ) bad news that he didn't bother to follow up on telling the Main Library that I was in th hospital and so they automatically banned me for a year
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
