Three years ago I moved to a Flat further away from my family which was only 6 miles but felt much further, my neighbours were awful and every noise they made I had mental break downs, because I also suffer from Noise agrophobia. It was only because I was able to leave the place and stay with family that I was able to have a happier life, because as soon as I went back it wasn't long before I snapped. Having Autism as an adult of 34+ with OCD is hard enough!
Two years later I got a place that wasn't a flat, surrounded by Countryside, semi detached and surrounded by old people! But in my stupidity(?) with people telling me it's beautiful, it's lovely, I never considered the fact that it is 24miles away, nearly 50mins drive, and in just three days time I'll be living there. I'm suffering really badly now, I've had three big panic attacks of , " I'm so far away ", " I can't just get in the car every day and be in that safety net ", " What If i snap again, I'll never want to go back ". My family home is close to a park and pond where I love to go to and be at peace, I can walk into the town. But this out in the sticks, the nearest town isn't even walking distance.
I was forced out because the noise got so bad at my Flat, now I've moved into a place where I am completely isolated and I'm worried for my own health.
27 May 2016, 6:08 pm
