Broke down can't cope with life

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I'm f****d off with everything, need a rant, if you don't want to hear it then f**k off and don't read it I am f*****g crying my eyes out and don't need f*****g criticism OK?

Hate my next door neighbour's f*****g dog, it's a f*****g cocker spaniel and has a f*****g loud bark, could give it a kick in it's f*****g face hate it, don't know why people love such loud noisy hectic things for.

I'm as useless as f**k, have the lowest of the low job; a cleaner. That's all I can do, as I have this f*****g severe social anxiety which makes it f*****g terrifying to have a job what requires social skills, the world doesn't understand AS or social anxiety even though it's only Autistics that ''lack empathy'' and ''cannot imagine other people's mental states'' and the NTs are all brilliant at empathy THAT IS NOT TRUE OK?????????????????????????????????????????????
I'm too stupid and thick to do any other jobs, don't have a special interest and don't want one, just because I have f*****g AS doesn't mean I automatically have a wonderful special interest to focus on, I don't so shut up about special interests.

Looks like my boyfriend's daughter is definitely going to be moving into our flat permanently, but I can't say anything otherwise I will be a selfish c**t. I love him and want to just live with him alone, I don't want a highly extraverted person hanging around the place too, I wish people didn't have children so much, I wish he didn't have any children, there I said it. But I love him and so I have to take on his kids too.

My mum's diagnosed with bowel cancer (the cancer from her ovaries had spread to her bowels) and I'm so scared of that, I can't really talk to my mum about my worries so much because she's got enough stress of her own, I f*****g hate cancer, it's just not fair.

I'm fed up with being poor, I want to win the lottery, I hate the way this country is ran, by some racist dickhead who puts foreign people first before the British, IN OUR OWN COUNTRY, don't get me wrong I have nothing against foreign people, but in Britain it should be the British people who are put first because we are British people living in Britain. Muslims get offended if we have British flags out. I mean, what the f**k? But WE can't say anything against any foreign person, particularly the Muslims, because we will be the racist ones and thrown in prison.

It's so unfair. Life's unfair. I don't know what to do.

Sometimes, people just have to let things out.

No criticism here.

I hope you feel better soon.

I know how you feel,

Try to be very positive and nice to the daughter or she will start competing against you.

Oh Joe, I'm so sorry. I thought you were maybe having too much stress to deal with.

So what's the deal now with boyfriend's daughter, is she part of the arrangement even after you two get married? My response to that would be: HELL NO.

I'm so sorry about your mother, but you know what? Lots of people survive cancer these days. I think it's okay to talk to her about your feelings, as long as you don't yell or anything. She's probably thinking a lot about her own mortality anyway, and maybe she has things she wants to discuss with you.

I think you should not view your employment as low status. There is honor and dignity in all work. I have done hotel cleaning for a living, it's an honest dollar. I bet you might be able to find a different kind of work that has very little people contact, though.

I do believe the two biggest stressors you are dealing with at the moment are your mom and your boyfriend, and all the other factors just add to the misery.

I hope you feel better soon.

Hi Joe90, wow, you have a lot going on. I hope it helped to vent and that you know there are people here who are listening and care. I know how tough it is having a parent who is battling cancer. My dad lost his battle with cancer when he was 66. I was 26. But that was almost 40 years ago. I hope treatments are successful for your mom. Maybe your mom would like you to tell her all the things you are struggling with now? It might be a welcome change from focusing on her own current struggles for a while. Just a suggestion.

sorry about your mom's cancer.

Hugs

Thanks guys for the replies (it rhymes!)

I just got all worked up about everything yesterday. I've been positive about my mum and not been thinking about it too much, but suddenly yesterday it all got on top of me and I just broke down in tears.

But me and my boyfriend are fine. I phoned him up last night and had a chat about what will be happening with his daughter. He understands and said that she won't be hanging around the apartment very much at all. Also he has paid off his debts so he has more money to himself, so that's good.

I don't like barking dogs but don't worry I wouldn't be cruel to one.
I'm ok with work, I'm just stressed with how hard it is to find another job.

Otherwise, I've calmed down.