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I made this new account because it was wrong to make my username my own email address. I did it in hopes that someone would contact me for a full conversation. I can't find any autism chat room, only more forums and blogs. I tried the autism speaks website, which got me put on more mailing lists. I can block hundreds of mailing lists on my outlook, which doesn't change the fact that I still need to find someone, anyone, in my area who knows about autism.
I've tried shrinks. Good luck even getting an appointment, especially in my area.
Or being labeled as a "frequent flyer," if you know what I mean.
I even spent three days in a mental care unit last year, and still had to leave my job because I was unable to take care of the workforce bullying going on there. Even though I was only a dishwasher, and the management constantly told me that I was right, that it was unfair, and that they didn't know what to do.
I was about to press charges against one of the bullies, but the owner pressured me not to because he has a daughter and is supporting her on his own. I cared too much for the daughter, and dropped the charges, which disgusted the attorney. The result of this was that I had to leave the job without notice, in order to avoid violence, and re-opening the case.
My family was able to cancel my lease, and I fled the city of Birmingham to come live in Montgomery with my mother, and it seems this environment is more tolerant. But I am still having extreme difficulty finding a job because all of it is done online now, and as I've illustrated, I have huge problems navigating websites. I just can't seem to click on the right thing, and I can't seem to take care of the malware and the lag (aka slowness) of a website.
Malwarebytes did nothing, and Kaspersky did nothing. Even then, I guess this just looks like more whining and complaining. So, I have no idea what to do, or where to turn. At least I found some kind of tolerance on this website. The only option left is to, once again, check myself into the emergency department and seek entry into the mental care unit. This time I will stay for much longer than three days, as I have no obligations to keep me from doing so.

Maybe a longer stay in the mental care unit will be what you need. It's possible that you could find some people you can relate to there. Would it be possible to move to a different area that might have more resources, like near a city?

welcome to WP, I for one am glad you chose to be here

I'm in a city. Montgomery, Alabama, in fact. It is the state capital, but it is still very hard to get anyone on the phone as far as psychiatrists. Therapists were a lost cause back in Birmingham, because I suspect most of them are used to neurotypical patients. They get perplexed and ask why I can't just ignore all of this.

I don't think my brain is capable of ignoring a stimulus, negative or positive.

Thank you both for answering.

The best way for me to get into the MCU - and I've done this before - is to go to the emergency department and ask for security. I ask the security person to search me, to give me his neuro-check, and that essentially by-passes the people at the front desk. (They are no good, and will make me wait six hours instead of three.)
At least with the security officer, I'll only have to wait three or so hours, and then they give me a blue suit and send me upstairs.

In Birmingham, the MCU was great, except for the doctor. She just acted like she didn't believe me, or have any idea why I was there. The rest of the staff, on the other hand, were great. Especially the other patients. The only drawback is that this will hurt my mother if I do it again, especially as I'm in her house, and am cooking and cleaning for her when she used to have no one before I came.

the cooking and cleaning duties sound stressful.

I love doing it.

I've been in cooking and cleaning my whole life, and this is the first time I've been able to do it with no bullying.

ok, I hope then that you are eventually able to get back to it [with your mother] with some financial assistance.

Maybe you could be self-employed, as a housekeeper or something. If it's anything like petsitting, it might be a decently well-paying job, especially as you grow your business and have regular customers.

What has worked for me , may not work for you. When I was young, I always dated really tough guys and nobody would mess with me. When I got older I figured out I had to go into a field that had a shortage so I could get my foot in the door as my social interview skills sucked. I have been bullied frequently with no support at 75 percent of the jobs . So I switched to PRN and then you can compare lots of places and choose the ones that have coworkers with hearts. The problem with aspies is are hearts are so darn big. Heartless people don't get us. They can't process like us so we are the minority.
You can try and blend in if you can. I got too old to have the energy to do that with my coworkers at around 45. I use all my blending and analyzing energy on my patients and I don't have enough left to be the perfect NT around my coworkers. I'm at a great place but less hours than I want. Got an offer for a full time job with benefits which I really need but I know of the place and had worked there PRN. I can't tolerate 40 hours of a few coworkers bullying me a week and nothing done about it. I just try and ignore it due to I haven't had the social skills to deal with morons like that.
I am going to an orientation at a voc rehab to help me learn how to deal with these things next week. hopefully it will help. I'm a runner and if there are bad peeps I give notice. anytime Ive asked for help they will find a way to make you look bad. One of the places couldn't come up with anything so they lied and said I worked too long on a weekend . (because they told me I had to due to short staffing).
Those kind of peeps are going to hell. They treat animals and everything else bad too.
I like to think of myself as a watcher for God since I remember everything like a recorder. I just think , I'll be there in soul and will let God and all know how you really were on earth. I also think Karma will get them. I'm not going to let the wicked and heartless turn me into one of them. It gets lonely though. I keep busy with a lot of crafts and surround myself with animals. Animals are angles from God.
Its terrible to say but since I've moved to the southwest, I'm happiest avoiding most people socially . The loneliness is better. I wasn't near as lonely until my dog recently passed away.
Well, that's my 48 year old experience on it. I got diagnosed pretty recently, I new it for over 10 years though lol. You are not alone. I send positive energy and heart your way. I only found one aspie psychologist and he retired so now I don't go and just take Vibrid antianxiety antidepressed. copay sucks but best I've found so far.
I am sorry you are going through this. I wish I had better advise. I think until we are understood and there are required sensitivity training and managers who actually are good this will cont. I'm really lucky for right now with a good manager who knows I'm aspie. Just keep trying . take care.