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Well, okay. I have two cousins and a really nice aunt. (I'll just call my two cousins... April and Bob. Just the first two names that popped in my head) April is nice one second, trying to kiss your butt to get to where she can have fun with you and buy stuff but then turn around and say horrible things to you. Bob is really quiet and passive agressive, and when April tries to come and be nice, there's Bob, watching... And wating to pretty much give you physical heck to back up April's meanness when she's ready to start again.

The reason why I'm writing this is that my aunt is having issues with her knee, so we have to tote her back and forth to the next town a lot. And I don't have anything against good ol' aunt...... Momo (not her real name) the problem is I get to see those two more! Yayyy! (Sarcasm) and April has a job at my favorite restraunt in town! Woohoo!(More sarcasm) But we had to get April to work, and she ended up giving me a shiny Jigglypuff plushie! I really wanted the Jigglypuff, but here she is trying to be nice again! It's an unending cycle, darn it!

So that sent me into yet another depression spell. Last time April was around, she stole one of my favorite Tamagotchis and completely screwed up my other iPad. This time, who knows what could happen? She was at her dad's house when that one traumatizing incident happened that I don't wanna talk about that pretty much reset my head, so she doesn't even know about everything on my Pokemon X card, but if she somehow screws it up, I'm screwed! And I won't even get any time to say goodbye to my friends before that, because when my DS does decide to work, the touchscreen is completely not toutching. My mom is skeptical about both of them, but she seems to be okay with her talking to me, and April just has that way about her that makes you forgive her even after she did something terrible, and it's even working on me, gosh darnit!

You probably don't want my thoughts, but here it is anyway.

Reading this makes me remember one aspect that sucks about childhood and that is you can't choose who to be around. The solution to your problem is to just cut these people out of your life but if they are family or your not 18. You can't really do that. So as painful as it is, if there is nothing going on that is illegal such as abuse, you are stuck with it until your 18. Enjoy!

What do you think, Midnightstar? Are you stuck with them?

April sounds very two-faced. You know what the one cool thing about two-faced people is? What they think of you doesn't really matter, so do whatever you have to do to protect your stuff from her if that's what you want. I mean, nothing drastic, but you aren't obligated to let her use your important stuff if she's already broken things.

Is there anyway to back up your Pokémon X card?

My mom generally won't make me stick around if I don't want to, but April just has that niceness that makes you want to forgive her when she wants to have it. She just makes you want everything to go back to normal. Let me give you a little prespective: around this time last year, she was in the JROTC, and there was a military ball about to happen. As weird as it may seem, I really wanted to go, and I went with...April... As weird as that may seem. I had my pretty pink dress, (litterally, my mom said it made me look like a disney princess!) but acording to April, the dress made me look like a pink runt pig, and my hair looked like somebody dumped a bucket of mud on my head. I acted like I diddn't even hear her, and luckily my makeup diddn't get screwed up, but AUGH!! Why would she say something like that? She wouldn't actually use my stuff, she just sneaks up when I'm asleep or something, and then does her thing. Heck, ahe even tried to take off with my baby elephant plushie.(the one I had since I was an actual little kid and need to sleep.)

Honestly, April doesn't sound very nice, and I don't like judging people, especially those I've never met. If she says one thing and does another, why would you trust her? Oh, and be sure not to tell April about how you need your plushy to sleep.

I'm just realizing how I don't have too many items from when I was a kid. I've got a doll buried somewhere, pictures of friends, a bunch of games, and that's about it. I had a little pillow I made for a school project and don't know what I did with that either. I had saved it to remember how I stuck it out, even though I wasn't good at sewing. Wow.

I wonder what you'll choose to save? Maybe take some pictures of your favorites too, and also your characters, as they'll be special to you all your life.

I don't know why I trust her! I seriously don't. My mom just says I'm gullible like that. And she already knew about Ella, I've known April for pretty much my entire darn life.

I actually have a... Kind of sort of terrifying fear of growing up, and I really dont like thinking that far ahead. I mean, I feel a little embarassed about how much Pokemon means to me, sure, I do like a bunch of other things, like painting, drawing, collecting seashells and being in the woods, but my mom says that because of how important it was to me back when that happened, it will always be very important to me, much more than just a game. Anna, the rest of my team, and even the human characters, they're my actual friends, even though they may not be real.

Do you think the characters are also your friends because you spend more time in their world than you do with friends your own age? On the bright side though, it also means that you are very creative and can invent characters with personalities that are realistic enough for you to make them your friends.

I had imaginary friends, but they weren't really characters in the same way. It was more like, I'm playing pretend and I need an imaginary friend as part of my game, or, I'm going to show my school to my imaginary friend, or stuff like that. The characters from my stories stayed on paper or onscreen. Not sure why.

As for growing up, you can actually control some of that. If you have a good relationship with your family, then you'll find that you'll grow up in different ways at your own pace. Plus, adulthood is years ahead of you still. Those years and those experiences can make a big difference in how you feel.

Last night, I was playing with aunt momo's cat, (my aunt and mom went to go do something outside) and not April, but Bob just came in and twisted my arm, litterally so hard that I could hear something crack, but he stopped right before he broke my wrist, and went on about his business. But it was kinda funny that the kitty I was playing with, Iffy, (I can tell you the cat's name, at least!) pretty much attack his leg. I'm okay now, I can bend my wrist and elbow and it doesn't hurt at all!

So, my mom noticed something yesterday. I was going on about how adorable and pretty Laura is, and then she pointed out how I look pretty much like a real life version of her, I have the same name as her, (she actually said I could say my real name on here!) and the same love of anime, video games, cute things, and the color pink. She has to be me, according to her. But no, I kinda can't belive that all of my stories and roleplays from other sites and drawings were all of me. And besides, it would be weird to be playing as yourself in a roleplay, right? ^_^"

And she also noticed something about my stories. She said that the way Team Flare would always say she's a runt and a pest was a lot like normal school, heck, those were even two nicknames I forgot about. And, well, I made Laura up before Rachel, and she actually turned out to be not like me! but her two sisters... Well. I bet you know where I'm going with this. They hated her with a burning passion, pretty much like April and Bob do on and off. Kimmy is just as innocent as I am. My point being, I don't know. At least I get to play Pokemon Go with Wanda while I go back and forth with my mom and aunt to the next two towns over because of my aunt's knee!

I would think of her as an alternate version of you, since she has different memories, different things that happen to her, a different backstory, and different fears. When you play her though, I get the sense that the things she says are what you would say if you were in her place. I've found that this can make the dialogue easier to write. When you play someone very different, the way I'm doing in our pokemon game, you have to constantly consider their thoughts and feelings as a completely different stream from your own. For that reason, I always give my characters different names. I've played a few that are like me, though their strengths and weaknesses are different, and I've never given them any disorders. The characters tend to be more impulsive and adventurous than I, potentially more fun also, to make more game experiences possible.

IT'S HAPPENING AGAIN

Yesterday, I had to go to my aunt's house again, because there was some strange stuff going on at my aunt's house, and we had to stay there for a while. (Like the whole day.) And that whole time, April and me were in her room, watching TV and stuff. Well, not really, She had her nose in her phone and I had mine in either my iPad or DS, but she was so nice! She ended up letting me watch the Powerpuff Girls like I wanted, she let me help her look for clothes online, stuff like that. But It's happened before, just like this more than once. I mean, I don't wanna be mean, in fact I can get pretty ticked off if somebody says something bad about something that I like, but if somebody says something bad about me, then I'll just sit there and take it. And April likes a lot of the same things that I like, so there's no way she would say something bad about that, she'll just take off with a bunch of my Pokemon cards. But I'm not sure if I should let this happen or do something...