I'm having a really crappy period

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Everything is stressing me out. I'm having panic attacks a little more than usual.

I just wish I could turn to someone who can confidently say: This is your problem, and this is how we're going to deal with it.

I've just done a whole bunch of online tests from a private psychiatric company (ADHD, Bipolar, OCD, Autism, Stress, Anxiety, Depression)

ADHD - 41 (consistent)
Anxiety - 31 (likely)
Bipolar - 27 (showing many symptoms)
Depression - 35 (severe)
Autism - 23 (strong likelihood)
OCD - 25 (moderate to high)
Stress - 35 (extremely severe)

Source of tests - https://www.clinical-partners.co.uk/psychiatric-services/private-psychiatric-assessment

I know people say never to rely on online tests as they mean nothing. But i can't help it, I just want answers, I can't afford private and the NHS are too slow and under funded to really do anything. I'm already paying £30 a month for private counselling when I can't really afford it.

I'm tired of the stress, I'm tired of not being able to think clearly, make a decision, not being able to focus, not being happy, not being able to take control of my life, not being able to carry out simple tasks and keep on top of everything. I'm tired of not being able to understand things properly, it makes me feel thick.

I feel like utter s**t tbh, I hate this life

What's exactly the problem and how can we help you?

I feel anxiouse all the time and Im not sure what to do about it. When pot becomes fully legal in my country I will be smoking it. That might help. Probably not that much though.

I've had a bit of success using nicotine patches for anxiety. They're not perfect but they're a lot less harmful than cigarettes. Sometimes they peel off too much so I wear one under a watch to keep it on. You can get them in supermarkets on the medicine aisle.

Other than that I try to arrange my life so I interact and come face-to-face with people as little as possible except for people who I trust and genuinely listen to and care about me.

I order most my shopping online and get it delivered. Stuff that can last like rice, tinned foods and jars. I pick up one or two fresh items at shops when I need them so I can rush in and out. Cook simple meals. The less I take on, generally speaking, the better.

So much of modern life is designed to make us anxious. TV adverts for example make us think we need things we don't. So I pay £8.99 a month for a Prime subscription instead which is nice because you get hundreds of films and TV shows free after that payment and the only adverts are for other shows and films, which you can skip too.

Maybe these suggestions could be part of a solution for you. Anyway I hope you feel better soon!

That's the problem... I don't understand what the exact issue is, so I have no idea how to explain it properly.

I'm not good at grasping certain information and it gets to me. And I don't want to be in a situation where I get screwed over in life because I didn't understand certain things. Right now I have Tyler (my bf) who looks after a lot of the complicated stuff for me and helps see to it that I don't get screwed over by making stupid decisions about things I don't understand. But I can't help but wonder if he'll be around all the time, and equally I don't want to be dependant on him for this (which I feel I already am).

I want to go to uni, but I'm very put off because I know I won't be able to deal with the work load and deadlines and I will struggle to understand things and I won't really know how to get any support, or maybe people will just tell me that uni isn't the place for me (which i already know). There's open university, but I don't trust myself enough to be organised and focused to be able to actually do it (I have tried online courses before and I never get very far, despite my efforts).

I want to learn to drive, but other than the cost, I'm also sure I don't have the attention span for it. I don't want to be the one that accidentally kills someone just because of a simple manoeuvre I forgot to make while concentrating on something entirely different.

My brain is so full of crap, I can hardly breathe! The tiniest, slightest change and I have to make it my lifes mission to find out the entire workings of that change. A strange mark on my leg? Where did it come from? What is reacting to make it take that shape? How long will it be there for? What gives it it's colour? Is it cancer? Will it spread? Or that guy who walks down the middle of the road in a mornings... Is he insane? Is he just owning it to make himself feel good? Why does he smile when I pass him? Is he proud of his 'i don't give a s**t' attitude? Or that spider on the wall... does it see me? Do I have any affect on it's current environment? What does it determine is food? Is it constantly looking for food? Does it think? Does it know it's inside? Does it even care? And all this can pile through my brain at 100 mile an hour.

And why yesterday I was feeling at the bottom of the pit when today I'm up in the clouds? Yesterday I felt like my whole life was one big fat lie and that I was worthless and I just wanted to quit and leave. Well, I feel the same today, except it doesn't bother me today.




I never even thought about nicotine patches? For anxiety? I may have to look more into that. I'm tempted to try and find me some cannabis oil, a lot of people say that works well.

Most of the other stuff you suggested I already do anyways. But i'm actually considering Buddhism to help. Buddhism has always appealed to me in the fact that it's more of a state of mind and the appreciation of what you have and not what you haven't got. Find my inner peace. I'm tired of little crappy things irritating me too much. It rules my life.

Don't let them tell you that. I've found that uni is easier than HS - after all you get to choose the subjects and your major. And it's interesting. Less social pressure too.

Speaking of Buddhism, meditation can help with the anxiety and it can help you to focus. If you're into zen, anything by Watts or D.T. Suzuki is awesome.

here is Watts' book on insecurity: https://antilogicalism.files.wordpress. ... curity.pdf

Also, devoting time to art, walking in nature can help reduce stress levels.

also shunryu suzuki's book - on the beginner's mind: http://www.arvindguptatoys.com/arvindgupta/zenmind.pdf

Has your counselor given you any advice as far as seeking a diagnosis (or diagnoses) or about your current life dilemmas?

If you aren’t getting what you need from this person, it might help to try someone else.