Everything sucks

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Life just seems really crummy right now. I'm unemployed and struggling with mental illness which is messing up my ability to work. My loved ones are struggling financially, my grandad's Alzheimer's is so bad he's on risperodone to stop his violent outbursts and he's still assaulting staff and patients at the care home.

We still can't make a claim on my gran's life insurance because they keep finding excuses why we haven't provided enough info for them and they keep wasting ours and the solicitor's time. That money would be really helpful for my grandad's care because it's very expensive.

My aunt has cancer again and she's going to die from it this time. My sister is going to need a kidney in a few years (at best) and I've agreed to give her one of mine. I'm terrified if we aren't a match because I don't want her to go through what our mum went through.

I live in a country run by amoral scumbags and it feels like I'm living in Nazi Germany with all the xenophobia and scapegoating of vulnerable people. I hate the psychopaths that put this country in this mess and the psychopaths that facilitated it.

I feel so helpless and useless. I just want to be able to work and make things better for my family. That or just send me to Mars so I can die alone in the void of space and be away from this s**thole.

Well thats quite a shitstorm.

Everything does suck! I agree!

f**k the world!

It's not the world's fault. It's the fault of individual circumstances happening at the same time.

If I had all this happening, I'd feel depressed, too.

It's lots of stuff for anybody to deal with.

The only thing I can say: just try to be strong for your family and for yourself.

Dont give up on yourself, or your friends and family.

I don't plan on giving up. It wouldn't be responsible to do anything like that. I just want to feel positive about the future but it's really difficult to. This is especially the case because of Brexit and how sterling is performing so poorly. The NHS is receiving no extra funding and yet we can send drone strikes to Syria and spend literally trillions of pounds on nuclear warheads. It's getting harder and harder to make ends meet and I'm terrified. I'm terrified for my family and the future.

I know I must accept what I cannot change and try to work with what I have to the best of my ability. It's just that I've had to make do for most of my life and I don't know how far I can stretch before I just snap.

I guess I'll just have to buckle down and work as hard as I can. I just hope that my efforts will not be in vain.

That is a lot to be going through all at once!

I am very sorry for your pain.

Re: grandfather and aunt-- make today count. Show them love. If they are quiet, then be with them quietly. If they talk, listen. If you have to visit for fewer minutes at a time, that is okay. Sometimes less is more.

Re: kidney. I am uninformed about medical stuff in your country. Is it possible to get your kidney typed now to see if it is a match? The only other thing I have to offer is

one day at a time. In other words, concentrate on today.

When I worry about stuff, I decided I can worry for five minutes at the top of every hour. If I miss it, then I have to wait until the next hour.

For example, from 12 noob to 12.05 I get to worry. If I miss, then I can't worry again until 1 pm to 1.05!

Hey,
I'm so sorry that you're going through so much at the moment. It makes the stuff I'm dealing with pale into insignificance by parison. Sometimes, it just seems like the whole world's turning against you. I've felt that way myself sometimes. I hope that things work out as best they can. Other than that, I really don't know what else to say, and I'm sorry I don't have anything more helpful to say. But I really wish you the best of luck one way or another.

I'll see you on Mars,
Rachel