Stress from all areas of my life
Work is stressful, very stressful, but I can't seem to find another job and there seems to be little or no support out there to help me with finding another job, and finding another job is also very daunting for me.
Home is stressful because my mum has cancer and requires chemo for the rest of her life, and I worry about her.
The buses have changed so now I have to get 3 buses instead of 1, and there are roadworks and traffic everywhere which makes the buses late and it causes me stress.
I worry about my boyfriend because he drinks so much when I'm not there, and I worry about his health. Also he works a lot but uses a lot of his money to bail his son out because HE can't manage his own money.
For a person with an anxiety disorder, I feel I have a lot of stress on my shoulders, and I can't escape. I just want my mum to be free of cancer, my boyfriend to toughen up a bit, to have a job that I like, and the buses to be simple.
Also winter is coming and I hate the winter. I don't like the sun setting at 4 o'clock in the afternoon, and I don't like the cold and I dread it even more if it snows.
Every time I go out people stare at me and I feel that one day I'm going to become severely agoraphobic. I mean, what do you do if you cannot face going out the door? How do you go to work and pay your bills?
Sorry, just needed to vent. I rang a friend up today and cried all my troubles to her. I don't like to tell my mum too much because she has enough stress with her health.
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Sorry to hear you're feeling this stressed. I'm always wishing there were a truly good, genuine work-from-home job that isn't a scam and really earns an income. That would be ideal for some of us on the spectrum, even with no agoraphobia but just stress from the work world and the world out there in general, including crappy public transportation systems.
I have no agoraphobia but being on buses and trains is so damn stressful and depressing it's enough to make you never want to have to be going anywhere.
Hugs.
I do enjoy getting the bus, that's the only place I don't feel agoraphobic, although I get annoyed and even anxious when people put toddlers next to or behind me. It's more frustrating when there are OTHER available seats and mothers decide to sit with their kids in my personal space.
Children are one of the reasons why I feel agoraphobic; their energy and noise just unsettles me. That's why I go shopping when they are all at school, but that gets difficult when the government keep adding extra days and even weeks to the school holidays.
Crowds are the other reason why I get agoraphobic, obviously.
There are lots of reasons why I get stressed and anxious at work, but one of them is I keep being forced to do another task at the end of my shift when I'm about to go home, and that's when I'm most fatigued. They've also shortened our breaks so I feel even more hungry and just want to get home. When I say this, the supervisor just says "yes we all want to go home" or "yes, I've got to stay behind and do X and Y too." She knows I get stressed and suffer with fatigue, but just because she's the sort to choose to stay overtime and do more work, she thinks we all should. She doesn't have to stay late, but she just does, like she's married to her job or something. But nobody gets paid to do overtime. What do I say when I have done my hard day's work and want to go home when my shift ends, but all I get is "we all want to go home"?
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I hope they're paying you the correct overtime for doing extra work after your shift ends? Do you have a clocking-in and out system?
I know you work in a nursing home and not retail, but back in my retail jobs which could often over-run too if they made us let in last minute customers, making cash register counting-out time later, we at least had a digital clocking-in machine and we got paid for whatever extra time we were still on the premises.
I wish they didn't make you do things not in your job description or not on your shift-time.
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