Stormed out of therapy...

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So today marks my last ever group therapy session. Won't put up with this again! To elaborate, I was already second-guessing coming back to the next weekly showing, which is a shame as I've attended for years. Recently however, a whole bunch of new people started, a rare event, and I've struggled to find any common ground with them, but now...
Against my better judgment I came in today, conceding that even though I feel under the spotlight there, actually travelling to and from the sessions themselves forces me outside more often and improves my mood. My psychotherapist who runs these 2 hour emotional marathons often gets other group members to focus on and talk to one person at a time, and she started with me. I made the colossal error of telling her why I hadn't attended last week: the hospital appointment followed by the ASD diagnosis. Because I value my honesty, I also told her about my reservations over returning to the group.
One woman immediately muttered, "Bye!" causing the others to start laughing. Another, the second longest attendee after myself tells me, "I can't be on the spectrum because so and so friends of mine have it, so I know". Second time she's done that! She said the same when I previously mentioned I was on the waiting list for an evaluation. Do people think any action to try and better understand one's mental health is some sort of narcissistic bid for more attention? I could have told them my parents started this whole process 2 years back, wanting an evaluation, and I meekly went along with it all because I love them.
I grabbed my coat and left. Hated making a scene - I was shaking on the bus back home and still am now! - but that really was the last goddamn straw.
Sorry for going on guys, needed to get this out of my hair one way or another.

That's horrible. It almost sounds like they were discriminating against you for having autism. Sorry you had to put up with that.

Wow, what kind of group therapy was that. I can't believe they were allowed to talk to you like that, that is ridiculous.

I think you reacted appropriately. That group sounds like a bad idea. Who are these people that you should open up to them and have to defend yourself? Well rid.

Thanks for your responses everyone. Now I've had some time to cool off I'm looking on the bright side. Firstly, it's good to have washed my hands of that claptrap once and for all (my Thursdays are liberated!) and secondly, I'm glad this has happened a week after being diagnosed with Aspergers and not later. Their mockery stung, but I've had worse. I think the lesson learnt is to be far less forthcoming with who to tell in person about this part of me, even a supposed professional.
My only remaining gripe is weirdly that I really did like travelling to my town on the bus on Thursdays, but now don't have a legitimate reason to do so, now. ^.^

Well now. You can leave and never go back. Or you could go their one last time and give them hell.

Which would you prefer?

Whilst I retain compassion for all of these people attending, the ones who made you feel uncomfortable I find rather unsavory and there must be other folk there who would rather they not impede or contaminate the ebb and flow of the group's direction and purpose... that ''Bye'' because you expressed heartfelt feelings pertaining to your presence... that's just bizarre and pathetic of them to bother uttering, I would have been straight onto that and said 'Is there any need for that?' absolutely appalling behaviour from what you described and you are best removed from such components.