I have no idea what to do...
This election and everything that has already happened since is making me very worried about my future and livelihood especially my relationship with my boyfriend in Vietnam...our goal was to meet up when he graduates college and comes to the US to further his education on being an English teacher...but after I heard Trump won, I told him it might be safer if he doesn't try to come here...I'm worried about our future as a couple, and my future in general. With all the hate from both sides flying around everywhere I have no idea what my future holds... Being a bisexual furry with Asperger's I'm very concerned about what could happened once he (Trump) takes office, and more so what will happen once I decide to finally tell my family and friends I'm bisexual...This fear is something I've never even come close to having before... At 23 this shouldn't be breaking me down to the point that I was sleeping in the fetal position last night...but it did... What the hell can I do? I need advice, and general support/encouragement I guess...I'm always the last person to admit something's wrong or bothering me, even if it's this bad...but I can't bring it up irl because I'm not ready to tell those I know i'm bisexual, so this is the only place I can go I guess...thinking about what the future might hold is bringing me to tears and my face is usually so emotionless except for when i'm angry or laughing that my family nicknamed it the "brick wall" so this is far from normal for me... sorry for the long post and stuff, but these thoughts might get to the point where I revert to the mindset I had the last time I felt like this at 13 when I was ready to die...I swore i'd never consider it again, and for the last 10 years I've kept that promise...but this might finally be what causes me to give it thought again...and I CAN'T let that happen...my family never knew I ever hit that point even then (back in middle school) and I don't want them to find out the hard way... bringing personal issues to others has always felt pointless and attention-seeking to me, but I have no few other options, I can't let this break me, but I don't know how to avoid it..
rafaelmp91
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Location: Brazil - RJ - Rio de Janeiro
Hi. I have problems with anxiety and depression, and I used to worry a lot about future and present. I was going crazy cause I have a bad relationship with my family and my college is very difficult, but it started few years ago and this year my anxiety didn't allow me to study.
I went to the neurologist some weeks ago, and he gave me 2 medicines. Since that I'm feeling much better, except from last weekend. Analysing your post I suspect you can suffer from a strong anxiety too. I recommend you to seek a Doctor too, it really makes difference, now I can foccus in the study again. Than try not to think a lot in the future. The future didn't come yet, you can't be sure that the things you're worring about will happen. I guess Trump can't do everything he said he would, cause a president don't have unlimmited powers, he depends on other politicians to do what he want, and I think most of them don't agree with the very radical ideas from Trump.
First of everything, try to care about your anxiety. After that everything in your life will flow
rafaelmp91
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Joined: 21 Oct 2016
Age: 33
Gender: Male
Posts: 20
Location: Brazil - RJ - Rio de Janeiro
If your BF comes here legally, then even Trump's radical immigration plan won't affect him once he's here. Trump is going after people who did not come here legally and also trying to prevent people he doesn't like from coming here.
Have you met your BF in real life yet, for a visit? Also, do you have any sense of your family's beliefs about bisexuality? How about their beliefs on stuff like forgiveness, family loyalty, ETC. that might help you, even if they have a problem with your bisexuality?