A New Beginning (Positive Thoughts)

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So I had a long last night and this morning and before that I had a long night auguring with my parents,

For those that know me, I think its probably a fair statement to say I am negative but my life is changing in a positive direction. I am leaving drama behind and unhealthy relationships behind and I want to travel the world. I found my reason to live and in the coming weeks / months will hit the road. I have found that I need to do something for myself and this is what I want to do. Maybe even meet some new people, I don’t know.

In the coming weeks you will see a new version of me, I will be very positive and I will get myself out of my situation, I am also thinking about the future of this account. Does anyone care if I make a thread about traveling the country? Does anyone care at all at this point?

I don't know you, but I care. You need to do things while you're young. Even though college isn't for three and a half years, I know I want to go to another country, but my mother opposes it already. She says, "You'll have plenty of time to travel." What if I don't? I'd rather be safe than sorry, so keep on traveling and fulfilling your dreams! I believe we're all here for a reason, so find yours.

I'm glad you're feeling more positive about things... And your question is completely silly - after making everyone worry with all the 'drama', you OWE us a happy account of things going better for you!

Hey DCJ!

I want to hear about your travels!

This is an excellent idea!

Nothing to lose, I always say!

The only caveat: it's harder for people to sleep in cars these days; cops harass people who sleep in cars.

I'm not nearly as much of a hard-ass as you think I am LOL

Well there is a road bump, my parents are not being supportive and they have a good bit of my money that would be awesome to use and get some kinda of vehicle. Honestly there is doubt, honestly I wonder if I made the right decision to live but everyday is broken, our lives are broken each and everyday and the next day, and the day after that. We have to find reasons to live outside of that. I want a new beginning but its not easy as the day suggest, its not going to be easy tomorrow, and the day after that will probably be even worse. My parents say its in my best interest to keep my money but at the same time they say there is no relationship. I hope they let me do whats in my best interest.

Today is hard,

Its never been worse actually, but it rains before it shines.

I will find a way out of this nightmare.

Sounds like you're feeling a bit depressed. I think traveling might represent escape to you now, but a friend once told me when I was thinking of traveling that wherever I go, I will still be there. She was right in that the problem wasn't where I was, but what I was. I had to take a long internal journey which led me to feel more comfortable in general.

It also sounds like you are getting to a point in your life where you want to distance yourself from your parents a bit. That's normal and I think you should take steps to do so.

If you have some money you might consider buying property in the city you live in. You would have your own space, which is new, but still be in familiar territory.

The problem is the unhealthy relationships where I am at,

I am sure internal problems will remain but I can't fix myself when people are for example, stealing my money, or otherwise taking advantage of me.

What is your living situation now?

My landlord put me in another apartment unit to remove me from other people. same company, different building.

That is why I never went to court and why I needed a letter that I was in an unsafe environment which I got.

Basically she filed it under a reasonable accommodation, I am not sure how that legal loophole worked but my landlord is very supportive actually.

Well that's good. I just moved from a place where my neighbors were prostitutes and drug addicts/dealers. The place was disgusting. I am living with my Mom temporarily. We are trying not to get on each others' nerves.

You mentioned you had money from your parents, is buying a house something you would be interested in? It would give you more privacy and control.

I made $128 selling stuff today

Another hard day,

I got called an idiot and beat up...

Normally I wouldn't even post something like this, though it happens. Took my bus pass and generally just made my life worse.

One of my abusers, told me they would take any money I make or have (though they don't know where I live now).

Honestly it makes me feel defeated and it makes me want to not even try but I have to if I ever want things to change. I didn't fight back, I didn't say one word. I'll take what I must in order to have a life outside of this.

As for contacting the police, they say they are cool but I still would just like to avoid authority as usual.