Hard pill to swallow..

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It's a quarter to 3 am here and I can't sleep cause I am so depressed. Their are times where I oscillate between accepting myself as I am and hating myself. I really hate the fact that I am different from other people. I hate the fact that I've been alienated, shunned, and ridiiculed my whole life all because people don't understand me. I hate the fact that despite having good qualifications I am still underemployed and starting to hate my job. Furthermore the job is only part time and doesn't pay that good either. I go on interviews and no one wants to give me a chance. The way I got the position I have now is by starting off their as a volunteer. I hate the fact that I can't organize my money, my time, or my personal space worth s**t.I hate the fact that society as a whole would rather focus on some stupid superficial traiits and come to the hasty conclusion that I must be a ret*d or crazy.


This is such a hard pill to swallow...

If I were you I'd sit and meditate for aslong as it takes to get to sleep, you cant live in fantasy land, you/we all dont fit in to the NT category so you gotta accept it, learn something genius, and tell people that when you meet them so they won't think your ret*d. Just a bit quirky instead.

Gotta keep positive

SG

Well we'll all accept you here

Outside here its up to them, maybe you can 'bend' their way of thinking by doing something they half-accept, like what some commedians do to be funny that everyone seems to like. I really dunno. Maybe you need new friends...

You have to be strong and drag yourself through the negatives that narrow minded people think/see. Focus more on the positive aspects of your life and understand that all of us Aspies go through these things. Also stop beating yourself up about things out of your control.

It does get better I promise, I should know I'm 39

Unforunately it is harder for us, but we can develope self belief, learn to love ourselves and build a 'thicker skin' and we can and do succeed.

I've known you well enough via IRC now to tell you, without a shred of doubt that you're an excellent friend, intelligent, articulate, a pleasure to chat to and that you will find the things you're looking for.

Love and hugs,

Lynda

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