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14 May 2017, 9:40 pm

I'm so lonely, despite the girl the girl who works in the cafeteria next my house who come to check if i was fine because i hadn't went outside/open any window since Thursday, I hadn't talk to anyone since them :( I sent a message to a few friends on facebook but nobody answered me, i wasn't sad before but now i'm because i really feel i want to talk to someone



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14 May 2017, 10:28 pm

I get a bit lonely during the day now and want to talk to someone but because of the difference in time zones, no one is on WP who I can chat to.
When others are on here, usually in the early morning, I'm very busy with my chores and I can't spare much time.
I'm on another forum too, but the person I chat to said they want to be left alone.
So.
Lonely it is.


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14 May 2017, 10:33 pm

We can be lonely loners together.
I don't know if you want to talk to me.
Probably not.


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14 May 2017, 10:40 pm

why wouldn't i want to talk to you?
i'm sorry you feel lonely too :/


i really wish i had someone i could always count to talk to, i feel i need routine/consistence while talking to people but nobody seems to understand it :/

there was a guy who used to come here every friday, we cook and watch a movie, but he couldn't come this weekend :/ i was already getting used to it.

the guy i talk more, which is the guy i love but he doesn't love me back, he went to travel this weekend to meet his girlfriend (i'm not sure if she is exactly his girlfriend, i don't know what they have but they told me that he loves her more than he ever loved me). i feel really bad about it and i'm trying to control myself to not send him a lot of messages because i don't want him to think i'm crazy

i have another friend i talk often but she sometimes doesn't reply, this is one of those times.



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14 May 2017, 10:53 pm

I have odd ways of talking.
Sometimes people interpret what I say in a way I don't intend.
Fair warning.

That guy sounds a bit mean, to tell you that in that particular way.
It sounds hurtful.
I second the no texting.
Silence speaks sometimes.


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14 May 2017, 11:07 pm

Raleigh wrote:
I have odd ways of talking.
Sometimes people interpret what I say in a way I don't intend.
Fair warning.

That guy sounds a bit mean, to tell you that in that particular way.
It sounds hurtful.
I second the no texting.
Silence speaks sometimes.


it's fine – i'm misunderstood sometimes as well.
in which time zone you live?

it was hurtful :/ he thinks it's fine because he is sincere from the beginning, telling me he didn't love me. but i don't think it's a good excuse for the harsh things he told me. i still love him and i don't want to speak bad about him, but i did resent some stuff. he told me that this girl make he feels a better person, which is something i couldn't do for him. i feel really sad because i felt this way with him, he made me someone better..



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14 May 2017, 11:20 pm

I'm in the Australian Eastern Standard time zone.
I'm about 16 hours ahead of most people here.

In what way did he make you someone better?


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14 May 2017, 11:25 pm

it's a lot of time in the future! i'm in a different time zone as well, but it's a smaller difference, although my sleep rhythm is messed, it's 1AM and I don't feel sleepy.


he made me happy, and made more active person, and i felt like he took care of me.



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14 May 2017, 11:35 pm

And now you are miserable.
Sorry, but I don't believe he made you a better person.
I think you made yourself a better person when you were with him.
Sometimes being with another person makes you happier, gives you more confidence, etc., but those qualities still come from within you.
They don't come from anyone else.
It's a state of mind.


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14 May 2017, 11:35 pm

it would be 1 AM in a few hours here, and i wouldn't feel sleepy wither. i know how that is.

those are the hours where i have the most thoughts, most feels that i desire to share with others, but rarely during the week do i have a chance to do so....my GF is asleep during that time and it would be like speaking to a brick wall. any other time it would at least be read, and i suppose for that i am grateful.

isn't it strange how some of us feel mush more emotional late at night, or the wee hours of the morning?

do you ever get an idea for something during those hours, and wake up in the morning (on whenever you wake up) regretting it, or feeling differently towards it? i guess that is what they mean by "sleeping on something".

unrequited love really sucks :( i've been there for half a decade. i'm not sure if it ever gets better without transferring the feelings onto someone else.

"they told me that he loves her more than he ever loved me"......that was a really dick move.


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14 May 2017, 11:39 pm

Yeah.
Twisty knifey.

I feel loneliest in the middle of the day when it gets quiet.


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14 May 2017, 11:42 pm

but i can't be like this alone and there is no one to fill his place :/
he is everything i ever dreamed of :/ and so different from everyone around me
it's been so long i'm suffering from it actually, but i can't remove myself from it



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14 May 2017, 11:44 pm

about thinking too much during the night, it's completely true for me. although some periods i just lost all sense of time.



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14 May 2017, 11:55 pm

Thinking is the cause of most suffering, I'm sure.


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15 May 2017, 12:00 am

i think i do it too much but i have so many free time and cant occupy myself



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15 May 2017, 12:13 am

i'm really sad remember that sometimes even when we were in bed he was chatting with other people (mainly girls), and now he spent all the weekend offline because of this girl. i always thought he was just insensitive or that this could be normal, but actually it was just because he wasn't interested.