Should I feel bad about something I did a long time ago?

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When I was a little kid I did things that I'm not proud of. I used to be rough with little girls. Whenever I would go to a playground, I would shove, tickle, and touch little girls. There was an incident when I was 4 years old when I kept putting my hands on this little girl when I was in a tiny tots class. The teacher put me in a time out because I wouldn't stop touching this little girl in the class. The incident that I feel the most bad about happened in August of 2000 when I was 7. I went to the playground and I started tickling this little girl who looked about 2 or 3. She was there with her older brother, sister, and father. I kept touching and tickling her. Her brother and sister asked me nicely to stop multiple times but I just kept on doing it. I just kept on tickling this innocent little girl and getting in her face. My parents nor the people I was at the park with knew that I did this so I was never punished. Two years after the incident when I was 9, I started feeling horrible about what I had done. Ever since then I have felt really bad about it. The girl and her family never got an apology and I never got punished. This guilt has been eating me up for years and I've never figured out how I should go about this. I would never do anything like that now to anybody. It is one of the biggest regrets of my life. I just feel awful about it and have since I was 9. When I did these types of things to little girls, I didn't do it to be mean or to bother them, I did it because I thought they were cute like babies and that was my way of showing my affection as to how cute they were. That is still no excuse for my behavior.

God knows your heart.
God loves you.
If it would make you feel better, you can tell Him you're sorry ...
that said, from your post, it sounds like you didn't mean to hurt anyone,
so I hope you won't feel bad.
I hope you'll feel better.
Anyways, the past is the past.
Tomorrow is a new day,
a chance to put the past behind you
and move forward with a new start.
In fact, you can even start fresh today.
I hope you'll feel better.

You were 7, I don't think it will help you to continue feeling bad about it...seems like over time you've come to realize it wasn't a good thing to do and that's probably enough. I know I did some things as a kid I am not proud of...I certainly joined in with some others picking on this girl one time, I don't know why. I got picked on a lot myself and certainly felt bad after the fact. I also one time strung yarn all around the house and when my mom thought my brother did it I let him take the blame instead of admitting to it. And I did try to guilt trip people a few times, to get my way or at least make them feel bad I hadn't. None of those are nice things to do...but it wouldn't do me any good to dwell on it.

Oh also almost forgot about the time two other kids were playing I was about 5, a girl and boy running around...and I chased down the boy and threw sand in his mouth because I thought he should stop chasing her, but turns out they were friends and the other girl was trying to stop me. I guess in that case it was kind of misunderstanding because I thought maybe he was being mean....but still poor kid didn't deserve the mouth full of gravel I gave him.