Paranoid belief part 2

Post Reply New Topic

Im worse today. Last time I felt numb after telling the universe f**k you and my senses dulled after that. I told people it was the universe punishing me for what I did in a past life. This time I had a dream I was yelling "Come and get me you son of a b***h!" And I woke up feeling more numb today. Infact emotionless. I was fine all year until this happened. I dont want to tell them its my medication because they might give me something worse. When I was in the mental hospital they gave me something extreamly constapating. I dont think its the medication I think its the universe punishing me because it happened right after I told it off. I dont like feeling nothing. Im in my own personal little hell. Also my mom said she would stop helping me if I went off my medication.

I dont know. Some of you might think this is stupid. Hopefully this is just my paranoia. Listening to music is helping.

I don't think it's stupid. I struggle with paranoia as well, and have had bad experiences with medication. But the Universe is a friend of mine - I will ask it to be kinder to you!

Glad the music is helping

You don't sound stupid at all.

This might sound stupid though....have you tried apologising to the universe for your outburst?

I told you it would sound stupid.

That doesent sound stupid. Yeah I tried appologising. Didnt work. I just might have to live like this.