Most people commit a passive suicide

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Very few people have the willpower to end their lives by their own hand but they seek ways to shorten it.
I do know that when we constantly get a negative emotional impact coming from other people, society we can easily lose hope and motivation to continue life as the way others expect us to do that's why we get depressed and reach the level of apathy when every day seems the same with the same daily routines and this includes daily live activities like working in a 9/5 job get home and a small dopamine rush by entertainment, drugs and the family or kids if you have.

We're only alive because we cope with something. We have to cope in order to prevent ourselves from self harming thoughts and complete apathy which would makes us depressed and suicidal.

I think most people hide their suicidal self by thinking positively and attempt to be a good man in the eyes of society to get better grades, higher salary, more freedom but when we don't have the same qualities like other people, when we see that we have to struggle 10x harder than NTs around us I believe most of us lose hope and try to end somehow their lives whether by drugs, toxic foods or by entertainment so we can never talk to ourselves and see into our deepest fears. We constantly look for ways to avoid feeling bad, because we're supposedly should feel good and cope with life but it's rather abnormal. Living with Autism is abnormality and in most societies we should be dead already since we couldn't take care for ourselves, we can't expect normal people to help us when they barely even survive their own struggles. I think being Autistic is almost a death sentence for most people. We will never be normal, healthy and always have some flaws which prevents us to become complete.
We're toxic people in a society which try to prevent itself getting overwhelmed by toxic individuals. We make struggles in other people's lives by our inability to stand on our own feet. We're supposedly be succesful, take care of our parents and do what everybody else do but most of us can't nor feel the motivational power to attend the same life circle like NT people do. We're trapped in a world where we can't fit in and only except to survive by cope.
Human existence is filled with suffering and very few people got the privilege to get help from others to make it easier.

I just cope day by day. When I faced being homeless, nobody cared. I know the feeling.

Nearly a year ago, I was admitted to a psych hospital for psychosis. Nobody cared at all. Everyone ignored me and avoided me even more than they did before I got sick. As historygal said, coping is a "one day at a time" deal.

People don't seem to understand why I sidestep social activities.

my choice of passive suicide is smoking. not that passive actually.
I once quit and got depressed from it, - thought it would pass, but 2 years later I started again and was immediately better. I started reading about nicotine and tobacco and the atypical development of dopamine levels in ASD - and realized just how addicted to anything dopamine I either am, or know that I could easily get - gambling, for example, I know that I'd get addicted if I ever started. Or certain video games. Adrenaline stuff, too. And sugary food.
anyway.
another thing that releases dopamine is working towards a goal/reward.
getting obsessed with work is something aspies can do very well - it seems, maybe better than others.
and it always gave me more kicks than socialising.
so... being a workaholic does it for me - and it doesn't matter how much I earn, actually, but it's more important that I can do stuff as well as I'd like to do it, i.e., am given enough time.

the whole social thing that's doing it for NTs ... it's not doing it for us. fair enough. but other things still can be good.

please note that I, too, am a rather lonely person, and am struggling with all that. but not always, and that got me into exploring more what does give me pleasure...

So other people on earth understand this.
I just sit all day. I stay on the internet or watch tv. I know they say "sitting is the new smoking but I just don't care. I see no point in trying anything else. No one wants to stay my friend anyway so why make friends who won't be around for long anyway.
So here I sit. Bored and isolated.

Why bother trying to make friends when it never goes beyond the acquaintance stage anyway?

I wish I would die already. I have been waiting for a decade or more, I really don't want to live another 20-30 years or more. My life is so pointless.